Neurodivergent here. All the disgusting things I do or think on display. Wail away. |
Unedited.... I swear I'd know poetry if it slapped me in the face I'm not always the beautiful mind portals pushed wide by wild winds swirl, spin and slam that door shut flat face expressionless folds up Ignorance was a paddle to extremities exposed to the angry trustee of my emotional well being trying to get through a day without breaking your unknowable rules until red from the other side of lumber swung stinging not only flesh but a fresh mind, jumbled, disarrayed and visions of beauty decayed Never realized this rot in my bed could one day inspire nature revitalized. I tote this bag of manure through a garden of words sprout sentences cultivated in their rows the sweet tubers and gourds arrive late tasty fruit all summer I swear I'd know poetry if it slapped me in the face Parts of me have been numb since I thought I was dumb before the excuse, that was youth you're a big man now? Where is that disconnect, the tiny wires rigged to set off the little eruptions the little interruptions that I could spend several hours in a mind's wasteland no excuses for the expiring clock spinning faster on a dull wall puzzled faces great my flat face monotone voice wants to project what it feels doesn't know what you'll make of all this since I can't set anything right if conditioned to feel shame, remorse and resulting regret from manipulation meant to take control of a wild spirit who'd...what? What was wrong with a young man with passion that wanted to explore things other than the inside of her vagina with a flesh tool kept in my pants, because I was too afraid, and so captured, and couldn't conceive what love was all about I just needed someone to remind me I was alright I was right to pursue my dreams even if I'd fall flat on my face. They said don't So, I never tried. Lowered expectations and hung around the sideline watching 'heroes' who were as close to zeroes like me because they were scared into trying to be someone when they didn't have the same passions, visions for their futures their trustees need to capture, because why? Why do they fail to raise us, fail at their own dreams of life? So, here I am, self-corrected and sorry if I'm a little gun shy because I've been on the other side. 4.7.23 tune back in from time to time to see me mold my marble block, if it's at all possible |