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2024. Going anywhere inside my little world. |
*bangs head on keyboard* hga;nrgrvrnvg Just don't know what to keep writing.......everything is SSDD Didn't go to Clubhouse today. Used the rain as an excuse not to go. Terry says it is supposed to rain all next week though so I can't use that as an excuse to just too stay home and do nothing like I did today. I slept most of the time today. I just didn't want to do anything and didn't care about what I should be doing. The craft room is still a disaster. My room is starting to become a mess again. I keep looking at the pile of notes to TLC I should be working on. I also look at the pile of books I should be reading and going through. I have crochet group tomorrow and still don't know what I want to work on. I am just so depressed. I want to hurt myself. I want to go to the hospital and get my meds changed. I just don't want to hurt the people who care about me. I know that people care but that doesn't change how I feel. I feel like I am swirling down into a pit of darkness. I should tell someone but I don't want them walking on egg shells around me or asking why. I don't know why. I feel like I am rapid cycling.. but the highs aren't really that high and the lows are getting lower every time. I've got to find some help. |