trapped in a soap opera

mad at chris and the phone

Chris if u read this then im mad at u cause youre never online ha ha, i guess im not really any more.

On to the whole point of this thing--talked to Perk a little bit ago--apparently murph wasnt too drunk last neight to remember what he saw--oops. Im gonna catch hell from Greg tomorrow--and next time Perk and i are in the same room together, were never goin to hear the end of it. (remember how i said Murph was passed out on the couch--well he had to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, so he kinda busted us in the middle of it--we hoped he was too drunk last night to remember but no such luck). Theyre all over there tonight, Perks catchin it.

anyway speaking of Perk, dont know what to think about him--he's got about average looks, but i got "the hot guy" im kinda workin on right now. besides Perk's a really great guy--one that i would actually fall hard and fast for, and thats not what im lookin for right now--i just wanna chill and have fun for a while. I mean think about it ive been in a serious relationship for 4 out of the past 5 years. i really just dont knwo what to do--i really like being with people, but i really dont want to be tied down right now.

i was also supposed to call Jamae back tonight, but i didnt cause i dont know how to deal with him really. i feel nothing for him, oh yeah and him and christi broke up yesterday, and he wants me, but hes a friend and i cant hurt him so i dont know (yes i know i now hold the record for run-on sentences HA HA)

last but not least echo is still tryin to set me up with TJ, she asked him tonight while we were working on our speech if he had a girlfriend. Im not to sure about her doin this, number one, most times when ppl try to set me up it ends up bein a disaster, number two, echo swears shell be subtle about it but i dont see that word in the same sentence as her name. Oh well we'll see.

JOhn still hasnt tried to call, ill give him few more days then hes outta here--i actually hope he waits a while then calls cause then i have a reason cause i think hes gonna get nixed anyway, but dont want to hurt him--hes really cool, just not for me i think.

anyway i think thats enough for tonight got to get some sleep.