Life as we know it sucks

Maybe I was wrong

Current Mood: ponderous

Current Music: High - Jimmie's Chicken Shack

 Connect to me.
You will feel
the charge
the closeness.
Our bodies
are one
but so far away.
You understand me.
You feel me.
You connect
to me.


The only guy I would [probably] leave Shane for is Jacob. But, that's not gonna happen - so he really has nothing to worry about unless I keep thinking. I feel bad . . . I like Shane more than Jacob - yet I'm in love with Jacob. But here's the bad part: it's almost as if I'd rather talk to Jacob, that I like him more than Shane - when in actuality, I only WANT to like him more. Why? I do not know. Perhaps it's because I "have" Shane, but I'll never "have" Jacob.

Shane and I are a match made in heaven. He says the reason he feels that I'll only like him for another week is because everything he's ever really liked has been taken, he's lost it. <sigh> Shane is completely my alter ego, too. Well, in most ways. There's something about he and I that works. Maybe I was wrong - there is someone else out there for me. Someone who is my match.

He told me that he may have a minor concussion and that he might not wake up tomorrow. That's terrifying. I would cry. That's one thing I would actually cry over. If he died or was seriously injured. And if he were in the hospital. I wouldn't make the mistake of not going again. I can't lose him and God knows that. He's not cruel - He wouldn't take Shane from me.

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but i threw you the obvious,
just to see if there's more behind you.
eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy
but i see,
see through it all.
see through, see you