Life as we know it sucks

I can't fight it

Current Mood: elated

Current Music: Unspoken Request - Boy Sets Fire

It's love. I can't fight it. And I can't hide it. I love him. I'm not in love with him, though. I just feel that major connection. "I can't stop this feeling, deep inside of me . . ." (BJ Thomas)

I spent all yesterday with him. It was wonderful. I hadn't really seen him much this week because he was so hung-over the whole time.

Last night, he promised me he would not drink. If he had, then I don't know what I'd do. Cry mostly. But I dunno what I'd do about us. He promises, so he better keep it. He kept asking me if I believed him. <sigh> I don't know. Since he didn't, I guess I can trust him.

We were watching Swimfan and a guy had cheated on his girlfriend, so Shane was wigging out. He was asking David if he'd ever cheat on his girlfriend. And so, Shane kept reassuring me that he wouldnt' EVER cheat on me. Thank God. I would die. That would hurt so much.

If he had gotten drunk, I dunno what I would have done. I'm into this boy too much to let go . . .

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but i threw you the obvious,
just to see if there's more behind you.
eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy
but i see,
see through it all.
see through, see you