My True Soul

Insanity Reigns

I feel insane at the moment. And I hate it, but it makes me funnier than usual. I hate long drives. It gives me plenty of time to think about this summer and Sarah. Like tonight, I started thinking about her, this summer, holding her and kissing her and how I wouldn't anymore and can't and shouldn't. I almost cried, I almost am now, I am NOT going to cry. I hate memories. I was gonna call someone and talk, but I realized, I should probably try to get through it on my own.

The whole reason why I am remembering this more now is cause of Halee. She's drove me INSANE this weekend and made me realize how much I miss Sarah, how we talk, and her voice.

Halee probably called me at least 20 times this weekend. She called about 7 times today, around 6 on Friday and Saturday... so 19... sorry. I am not exagerrating. She's left me around 20 voice mails since last Tuesday.

I do not like her. I mean, just, no. Too much like Jenna and not in a good way. Much worse than Jenna ever was.

Other than that...I don't remember what went on this weekend. Oh, yes, I went to watch movies at Amanda's house. We watched Terminator 1 and Terminator 2. Sadly, we didn't get to Terminator 3. I want to re-watch it so much...sexy mean lady, lol.

Anyways, I have severe backache problems, a headache, and I can't sleep just yet. I want my meds to work...I'm desperate for some sleep now.

For once in my life now...I'm telling my heart to shut up and to listen to my mind. Go figure.