My True Soul

Do I really have a type? - written July 25

Alright, I'm entirely tooo amused by incense. LoL, I bought a burner yesterday and stuff...I'm entirely way too amused by the smoke. I'm lil too amused by fire normally.

I actually got up at 8:45 today, that's a big deal especially considering I prolly didn't go to bed until 2:30 or maybe 3. I like getting up earlier tho... love how things are in the morning, how the sun comes up n shines n and then fades away, how things are so calm. That's why I love it late at night, things are calm then too.

I think if I ever had to pick one song to be my all time favorite, it'd be "Under the Bridge" by RHCP although the All Saints version is pretty good. I'm really not sure why I love that song so much. RHCP isn't even on of my favorite bands. I can hardly ever pick just one favorite, but that may be the first time. There are so many other good songs tho.

Alright, I went into this store yesterday...the girl who was working... wow. I was... lol, so totally captivated by her appearance. There are often times when I'll look and think "she's really ------" w/e and such but there are very few times where I'm like "oh holy...." and it's all I can do to remember to breathe... that's how yesterday was. I'm surprised I managed to talk to her the lil smidgeon that I did. So, for fun, I have a running list of famous women that I like.... drool over, lol, frankly. This list? Michelle Branch, Lalaine, Kate Beckinsdale, Amy Lee, Alicia Keys, Michelle Rodriguez, Salma Hayek, Rachel Weisz, Norah Jones, meh, n the list goes on. Most of those all have dark hair, dark eyes, don't know if anyone else sees this, but alas, they all pretty much do. Right, so, obviously that's the physical appearance that I'm attracted to, eh? Meh... lol... this is what I was thinking about yesterday. I also have a list of real people, people that I've seen in person, that I've talked to at least a wee bit. Now, I could say who they were...but I'm not gonna. The common thing with them? All of them have dark blonde/light brown or a mixture of some sort w/blonde/brown. Normally they have at least wavy hair... if not curly... but at least wavy. Eye color? Green or brown. Height? 5'3"ish-5'11"ish (Haha, quite a variation there!) So this puzzles me, lol. I would normally say I'm attracted to women like the famous ones but then, obviously, that's not so true. Another thing? Most of them have the same facial shape... oval/heartshaped. Yeah... that just, lol, amused me the other day. I got to learn something new about myself! I don't think I'd be attracted to the ones in real life if they came off as being mean and rude... actually I'm certain I wouldn't. None of them come off that way, they normally seem like they'd be friendly people or they might act a little shy.

Ah! I ran into Amanda's ex. Amanda's ex from like... 10th grade, damn. It was... uh... freaky. He said he went to visit her the other day, heh... I bet she was thrilled about that, but anyways... I don't know, at first, he seemed like a really good guy. And now? Not so much. But Amanda keeps grudges... for a really long time. I always thought I did.... but I don't know. I never got too upset about crap with Tamara n Melissa, I just figure they're stupid girls and let it go, Amanda gets really tore up about it at times.