My True Soul

Upandcoming events

I get to go back to school in less than 3 weeks. Part of me is looking forward to it quite a bit because it means I'll return to having complete and total freedom. Another part of me is dreading it because when I was in school last, I was so completely stressed out. I've signed up to take 19 hours of classes. That's 6 classes. It doesn't seem like that much, but we'll see. I have Plants and Humans, Spanish 1, Psych of Learning, Social Psych, Pscyh Statistics, and Racial and Etnic... something for a sociology class. Half my classes are psych classes. This is what bugs me, I have to have at least one semester of 19 hours and one of 16 or else I won't be considered a junior next fall. However, even if I do end up with 16 and 16, I'm going during the summer before my junior year... so I'd still get in the hours. I really want a double major in a way... but I have no clue how I'll be able to pull that off.

Everytime I really think about school, I get this overwhelming sense of dread. But then, the thought of just doing nothing like I have this summer? I couldn't do it. However, part of me is like "yay, you get to go back and have an organized life". I just hope this semester won't be as bad as the one in the spring. I don't think it will be, I won't have my history professor again. I think things will be gravy.

Ar, n my mom keeps telling me I don't have to rush through...but I want out of there pretty soon and I already feel bad about them paying for it. I have no clue why I want out though, I'm not in a rush to grow up and get a real job... in fact, I'd be content being a professional student. But alas, I'll go through college/grad school, get a job, get a place to live, work there until I can find a job somewhere I really wanna be, n then move there.

I keep considering moving somewhere in the northwest. I wanna go find bigfoot, that's my thing, lol. Just kidding. So many people thought I wanted to go to Washington just because of Sarah... I've always just liked that area of the country. It's just where I think I might be at peace. My parents? They of course hate the mere mentioning of me moving anywhere that takes longer than 3ish hours to get to. Of course, I figure that it won't matter too much to them. I really am not a family person though... I could have been once upon a time. But I think my family has a bit too much drama in it for me to have ever been a family person. And anyways, the idea of my parents, esp. my dad being so close they could get there without fair warning... it aggravates me. The other day, when I was going to go to Starkville, he mentions how he wouldn't mind going too if only I was going in the morning, I just told him no. A few months ago, I mentioned about going to New Orleans this fall (which reminds me...I must look up info about the area) he said he wouldn't mind going and I just was quiet for a moment... that's when my mom said "Uh, I don't think she's inviting you David" and I definitely wasn't.

Another thing that I dread? Being outside all day in this heat. Blah. I have at least an hour between most of my classes, which means I'm stuck on campus because there's not enough time for me to get off campus really. Oh well, guess it means I'll be finding places to veg out and study... then that way when I do get home? I can just do whatever...that will be nice.

Okay, Kat sent another survey. I'm bored out of my mind, so I'm about to do it.