My Life on a Plate

Eeyore

The weekend hasn't been a pleasant one; a lot of stress and anxiety has left me feeling 'Eeyore.' Even as a child he was my favourite character in the 100 Acre Wood and as I grew up I related to his gloomy, negative view of life.

I measure my levels of depression in three ways.
1. Alfie - already explained that in an earlier entry.
2. Eeyore - as today.
3. Gone With the Wind - watch out for that one, it means rock bottom.

I no longer worry about having, or talking about my darker side. It's part of me and even if I don't like it, I've learnt to accept it. If it bothers others then they're not my kind of people anyway, so I'm not concerned. I'm not comfortable around people who are always positive and looking on the bright side either. The most interesting people are those who have many sides to their personality in my humble opinion.

My horoscope tells me it's time I had a day caring for ME, not others. Okay then - plan for today. Have liposuction, manicure, massage, sauna, swim, lie in the sun reading a new novel, eat a three course meal out (which has no calories of course) watch a favourite video then retire with Robbie Williams to a four poster somewhere exotic. That would relieve my Eeyore mood.

Reality? Make beds, get washed and dressed, put washer on, dust, plan next week's meals, visit parents, do jigsaw, cook, wash pots, write a bit and go to bed too late. Spot the differences?

So, how to handle the Eeyore feeling? It works for me even if it takes a while. Keep doing things, do not give in to the urge to lie down in a darkened room! Look for one thing each day that is a pleasant surprise and write it down. It's usually something very small, maybe easily overlooked but I guarantee, there'll be something unexpected today that I'll grab with both hands and say 'Yes, there is hope and reasons to get up in the morning.' Watch this space to find out what it is. I bet you can't wait. lol