Wondering about my Wanderings

Heavy Burdens

Today my back aches and that means my burdens are heavy even if my heart is in all the right places.

I have a caregiving job that requires lifting. I hate to let Jan down. And then beyond that I was supposed to help my sister-in law move tomorrow. It is difficult to crash beyond the pain. In my younger years I did it on numerous occasions. I would take some pain pills and almost throw my back out just so I could make some extra money to feed the family. My body is telling me something. I do believe bodies talk. In this case it is saying stop being so hard on yourself. Like Atlas, I want to carry the whole world on my shoulders. Life does not work that way. Several weeks ago I had a really good friend who talked about a need to stay home rather than go to a funeral of a childhood buddy. It was the hardest thing for him to do.

I want to say how can you do this to me God? Maybe the better question is what is making me do it to myself. I will learn. In scripture it says carry your own burdens and then focuses on helping lighten other burdens. Jesus says "he will make our burdens light." I will figure it out one day and then my back will smile!!