Porthole

how i'm doing

My deleted post elsewhere:

"Triggers suck. As for crying... I'm easily moved to tears but there's no one here to see them.

That sucks too.

The continuous assanine s*** from our present dear leader triggers me. I wanted to move on by now. I struggle. And covid? The numbers here are soaring and covidiots standing by the casino next door remind me why. I do groceries once per week. I am careful. But I should wear a mask to take a shower or take a s***. I don't dare take a bath.

Nothing has changed for me. My depression is lifting and my nerves are calming down but not fast enough."

Wrote yesterday. A poem, a parody, a flash fiction. I am writing in my journal. I put it on pause for September, October and November. I'm on page 5,149.

11 blog comments in 5 days. I should be happier than I am.

I have friends that are traveling. I don't know how they can. There are so many restrictions. And those restrictions are very expensive for budget travelers.

Yes... poor me. Which is why it's better to do prompts and pretend that everything is okay when it's not.

Added much later from a comment I made about characters in Sorji blog:

"The only problem with placeholder names is replacing them.

I usually just make something up on the spot. My main Space Cadet doesn't have a name because he's the narrator, but others have referred to him as 'Four Ears'... which works because he has four ears...

My one character is named Beverly Hill but goes by '90210' (an in-joke that needs to be explained to the other aliens aboard 'Home').

And 'Home' seems to be becoming a character as well. It's not exactly a spaceship... more like a floating space hotel from Japanese anime moving through the void. No 'name' other than it welcomes newbies with "Welcome Home". The nickname sticks... and gave me a subplot to work with."

Don't know whether this is collectable here or only at the bottom of the blog-header.

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