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Just a blog... aka random ramblings from me.
Sometimes I ramble. Sometimes I just need a place to scribble my thoughts. They don't always make sense, but I just have this insatiable need to let go. To just... you know... let it flow.
November 13, 2007 at 4:22pm
November 13, 2007 at 4:22pm
#548926
I feel like a little girl
With a little girls crush
The way you make me feel
The way my crimson blood rush
Through my quivering being
You must be all I was looking for
At least you are the vision that I had before you
Walked through that broken door
You’ve opened my brown eyes
To a world I never knew
A realm that wasn’t quite
So lonely
So blue
It does exist, maybe just for some
It’s just hit or miss, or perhaps
Thickly coated in a foggy mist of mystery
Oh could it be
Oh please it be
I don’t know where I am right now
All I know is that
I want you
Can you tell me how
Is there a possibility that
I could ever be,
That girl
The one you would follow around the world
If you had to
I like awake
In the middle of the night
With you on my mind
That’s something that will never change
Even when you’re mine
My heartbeat is aching for you
It’s saying in code
That only you will do
I’m sick, I’m crazy for you
Or is it just a dream
Of what I’m looking for
Someone who simply adores me
Just a distant memory,
Hide I don’t want to find you
November 7, 2007 at 9:35pm
November 7, 2007 at 9:35pm
#547585
I want so badly to live

to follow my dreams

to face reality

to figure out what it all means

to be free from it all

to not be afraid to fail

to go for it, reach for the sky

to not let my fears derail... me

my cries remain silent

i don't want you to hear

my heart is breaking

it's just so full of sheer... misery

i'm open to so much more

do i deserve to be

everything i long for

i'm almost too tired to see...

alone, i will remain

alone, that corner is mine

alone, is not what i want to be

alone, i think it's fine...
November 7, 2007 at 9:29pm
November 7, 2007 at 9:29pm
#547584
How do I learn to grow? To love this fractured shell I live in? This person that only the world sees, she's not me... Not who I was meant to be. Her voice, stifled by all of my uncertainty. Let her out, you say? Oh now, wouldn't THAT be the day?? Perhaps now, let me get on my knees and learn how to pray. Can I convince myself that I deserve this? And maybe so so much more? I need to find my way. I want to know me... to know what makes me smile. :) What kind of effort would it take, to make it through life, mile by mile? Where is that motivation, why is it buried so deep within? Rocky is that sea of life, the one that has led me to, and through, all of this strife. I'm broken and tired, but I know that I can't possibly give up this fight. Aching to be free, aching just to be me
November 6, 2007 at 9:39pm
November 6, 2007 at 9:39pm
#547377
You say you need a break from this way of life
You say you need a break from the pointless and endless strife
Your love has grown cold, you are not the same
You aren’t so bold
Yet here we are again
Spinning out of control
Death of me, you’re my enemy.
Your heart was once gold,
Now it’s just so fucking ice cold
Death of me, you used to be my everything
Where are we now,
I don’t know how we got this way
Do I even know you anymore
You are the one I fell for
The one who fed my soul
When I thought I could handle no more
Death of me, you are my everything
You brought me joy
Now you won’t even walk
Through that open door
Death of me, you’re my nothing
You left me empty and broken
?Bursting through my veins?
Have the seasons changed
Do you know anything
Have you no fucking shame
Goodbye to you
Death of me
November 6, 2007 at 9:36pm
November 6, 2007 at 9:36pm
#547376
Open your eyes to the pain i met, only yesterday

foreign to me, i said "you've clearly lost your way"

a whisper so thin

nearly lost in the wind

invasive, it searched every pore

burrowing itself, right down to a rotten core

but, a wail as silent as a banshee's cry fractured what was real to me

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