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Rated: XGC · Book · Other · #2020667
blog of a person who seems to be invisible...
ok.. so I'm taking a next step in my life. I'm improving on myself. I'm going down this path i am on, thanks to God. I now attend a church regularly, and I like its small confines in a church building i attended nearly 40 years ago. To me it is surreal.

Do i know whats ahead, or even where I am going? no, not at all. to be honest it scares me, but I need to step out of my fear and take charge of my life, and live it the way I and God want me to be. where ever this path goes, I'm sticking it out to the end. I feel it is a testament to who I am.
I am learning more and more everyday about myself. and improving, also trying to make amends for past mistakes.
But one can only make amends for mistakes where there was mistakes to begin with, if people don't want to listen then that is their fault, and their loss. I wont go where im not wanted and I know I am a good man, if you don't.. well that's too bad so sad for you...
September 12, 2020 at 7:34am
September 12, 2020 at 7:34am
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Well, I am being told feeling lonely at an empty place is normal. After all, I went from living in a house with six people in it to a place with just me, myself, and I in it is normal. but I am not sure whether I believe that or not.

I found that all those people who were so excited and wanted to see my new place are gone, no one seems interested in it anymore. And communication with friends seems to have gone as well.

And the one special person in my life has given in to her fear, and once again I face life alone, I guess it is time to give up. I'm not sure... even my writing has fallen behind and I don't take pleasure in it much anymore.

Oh well, I'll figure it out, someday.


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