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Life is a journey - come along for the ride! |
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Life is a journey full of twists and turns. Some are good, some are bad - and some leave you guessing. This is my journey through life. I hope you can relate. Some of the entries here will be positive, some will be negative. However, I am going to be completely honest in this blog - this is the real me. This is who I am. The experiences here helped shape and mold me into the person I have become.
So come on in, sit a spell. Get to know me - the real me. Laugh with me. Share my tears. Get mad with me. Join me on my journey through life, and maybe...just maybe, you won't have to make the same mistakes I did or you can be encouraged by something you read here. Bonnie Ray |
Okay, so I am sure you are wondering about the title I gave this blog entry. Let me start out by saying that 2019 has been an absolute EPIC year. My son finally came back home. And yes, the adjustment has been a major struggle, but so well-worth-it! However, 2019 also left me with unmet goals, a depression I haven't been able to shake, and more stress than I'd care to admit. To be honest, I allowed all the crap in 2019 to defeat me and knock me to the ground. I allowed all the b.s. to kick my butt. My faith has taken a major hit this year, and I'm not really sure why. Yes, I still believe. However, the close relationship I once took joy in every day has become less close. Yes, I admit it - I'm the one who made that happen, but it also didn't happen all at once. I didn't realize it was happening until it had already happened, which left me feeling like a failure. My writing has been almost non-existent compared to previous years. Again, I take full responsibility for this because I lacked the self-discipline to actually sit down and write every day, whether I felt like it or not. And as far as those goals I set so many months ago? Yeah, well...I haven't even reached the first one yet. However, that is also my fault - lack of self-discipline, poor time management and straight up depression have all managed to kick my butt this year. However, all of that is about to change. I am no longer going to sit on the sidelines as the devil beats me down into depression and fear of what might happen. I am not going to allow myself to lack the self-discipline to reach my goals. I am going to do what God has called me to do, regardless of the cost. 2020 will be my year - my all out year - my year to take my life back! I have 10 goals set for 2020, and I know that if I apply myself to them, there will be no stopping me. I must reach these goals - and I will. They are the same goals I set for myself for 2019 a few posts back in my blog. However, the determination I have to reach those goals has increased. My faith has returned. My self-confidence has made a comeback, and now, so will I. So, if you are struggling like I have been, let this be an encouragement to you - YOU CAN DO IT! Just get your head back in the game, your heart right, and take it one step at a time. And don't be afraid to fall sometimes. Sometimes it's in the fall that we learn something that allows us to get back up - stronger than we were before, more determined than before and ready to face the challenges that will no doubt come our way. |
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of getting a bicycle maybe that will help get my energy back as well as getting me healthier. I'm glad that your back and praying you don't leave me again. 
Love ya, Sis 
