Free to Write

Instead of doing all the things I should be doing, mainly, working up a next copy of my thesis, complete with the changes my advisor advised, I've been playing computer games and watching old episodes of Australia's next top model. Which I refuse to feel guilty about. I have three stories left to do before Saturday, and they are the three that need the most work--at least two of them need the most work and the third needs some major polishing. And, when I finish those three, I may or may not have enough pages in my thesis to justify taking another story out, and if not, I need to do a rewrite on that. Which shouldn't be too difficult. I can do it. But the deadline for my defense is moving closer and closer, and I've already booked the room and asked my committee if it was all right, and I want to be done and defended, and I feel like I might be sabotaging myself somehow by instead of doing my thesis.

I should just focus. Three stories. I can do it. My last rewrite took a page away, my next should add pages. I can do it.

I'm so tired.