Dear Abandonment

Dear Abandonment,
I’ve missed you for so long. How long has it been? Time. So much time. Did I leave you? Did you leave me? I don’t remember anymore. Your face, your smell, your voice, and your name. I’m missing you. I’m missing pieces of you. Where have you gone? How long have I been gone? Time. Where has the time gone?
I sit here. Alone. All alone. I cry here. Alone. All alone. I laugh here. Alone. All alone. It’s so sad and so lonely here. Why am I here? Why am I all alone?
There is something so cold inside me. Why can’t I get warm? It’s so dark here. Why can’t I see you?
Are you leaving me? Am I leaving you? Again?
Sincerely,
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