As Pathetic as it is

Again I lay here,
In my bed,
Staring at the ceiling,
As pathetic as it is.

I've failed again,
No surprise,
It's what I do,
Fail,
As pathetic as it is.

Can't get up,
Can't get out,
My mind is screaming at me,
Just to move,
But I won't.

I'm too afraid to face the day,
Too afraid to do what I must,
So here I lay,
Trying to forget,
That I exist,
As pathetic as it is.

My mother cries,
My father yells,
My brother glares,
and I,
I lay here,
As pathetic as I am.