Biggest Part of me

So many fool questions I’m still asking until now. I’m searching in vain; for answers that makes me insane and complicated. I can’t escape, still can’t accept that the most special person in my life had been snatched away from me when I really need him most. Damn, what on earth? Until now I can’t live peacefully, I’m longing for my father that once came into my life. All I have is loss… Thirteen years it had been so; but till now I’m still searching for a rational answer… Yeah, once in my life I found a real home that makes me almost complete, nothing I could ask for… But heck! Why did he die? Why did he leave me, I’m dying here hanging. He told me he will never leave me but he lied.

But I must start again for the sake of myself and for others who live for my sake; like my family, relatives and special friends. Though I don’t know how to stand up again or start for a new day.

I’m just praying solemnity for the most highness; that please helps my tortured soul, to live again for my purposeful reasons. Life must go on; this is the right time to leave everything. Please wake me in my deep slumber…