Lucidity

Once so very anguished and distraught
I felt in a bunch of webs
i'd been caught
i spent my life battling demons
running fast around my head
finding cracks
digging to the depths
with little left
distant hope inspired by confusion
time after thoughts stopped building
blocking, destructing, and conceiving
my head in shock
almost spinning
the realization of the obvious
was very close to be completing
In the struggles
of allegations in the past
to the bewildering uncertainties
of the present
as the fog cleared
and clarity struck
the answers to mind occupying wonders
all came to life at once
all i am
i was from the start
I was and am what I am and was
forever on just
crazy and chaotic