WHY???

WHY?????

Why does it always seem to be
just when you are happiest,
something comes along to ruin
the thing that you thought best?

A test from God? I sometimes wonder
How He could be so unfeeling
to make a person feel such hurt
And just myself I'm being...

You just don't seem to understand
family and friends are most important
without them I am nothing and
to imagine life w/out them-I can't.

I am ALWAYS here for my friends
that's just how God has made me,
and if you cannot comprehend,
I guess I can't make you see.

That I will ALWAYS be here for
my friends who need to share,
but after all is said and done
To you- my burden I bare.

That is what I'd hoped for,
It's something I really needed,
but you didn't seem to listen
my words just went unheeded.

The person that I turned to
just happened to be my sis,
who also had a horrific day
and knew something was amiss.

She texted me this afternoon
'At least we have each other,
isn't that really sad?' she wrote
'With men why do we bother?'

I wrote her back and said, 'Not so,
it's great we have one another!
Friends and family are the only ones
you can count on like no other.'

Boyfriends/girlfriends come and go
of this you can be sure,
but true friends ALWAYS stand by you
their love is always pure...

For what ails a broken heart
is there really a remedy?
Does it take time and patience?
I guess we wait and see!

Who's to say whose right-whose wrong
it's all in one's perception
I'll tell you this, I wish there were
some clear defined definition.

Then we could assign the blame
no more he said/she said crap
It would all be clearly defined
both parties taking the rap

Because we all know that it takes 2
to make a relationship work
and if both parties do not try
someone looks like a jerk

This time it will NOT be me
I've tried my very damndest
I've overcome my past heartaches
With you I've been my best

But I CANNOT and I WILL NOT
pay for wrongs done unto you
in the past, there they should stay
With me- please start anew

I am just an ordinary woman
living life the best that I can
I wasn't looking for someone
but then I found you, my man

You helped me heal my broken heart
years of abuse and scars did heal
with you I thought I'd found my mate
I really thought we'd seal the deal

But when I needed you the most
I felt like 2nd best
Other things you had to do
I'm not important as the rest

That may be my perception
I may be totally wrong
but as you haven't called or text
is this my farewell song?

I didn't wish for this to happen
never in a million years
I finally found a guy I love
I say thru all my tears.

Erica B.
12/28/2006