Bitter Sweet Memories

I've done a lot in my life. I given birth to and raised 4 children, I've earned 2 college degrees, I've worked hard, played hard, and yes, even loved hard, but this is the hardest thing I've ever done. I've sold my home recently and I'll be moving to another state and traveling to many parts of the world. I know that sounds like it's pretty cool but I'm leaving behind many bitter sweet memories. I've had two failed relationships in this house that left me wondering about my own self worth. I lost my father in this house which left me empty inside. I lost a very special young lady, who always found the best in every situation, in this house which made me wonder about life itself. I lost a baby girl in this house, which left me wondering what kind of God would allow this to happen to one so perfect. I watched two of my grandchildren laugh and play in the playhouse on this property which made me smile. I watched my youngest grandson grow from birth to walking and talking in this house which filled my heart with joy. Now I'm leaving it all behind and moving on. I feel like I'm betraying all of these memories to move ahead with my life and try to find happiness once again elsewhere. I hope, with all my heart, that I'm doing the right thing.