Abuse

Friends wonder where she is and why they don’t hear her voice
She cries and wants to explain her story, but that’s not her choice

Inside she’s feeling hurt and isolated, she’s so confused
She spend nights crying and thinking to herself why the abuse

She prays things will get easier, and imagines a better life
The farther she looks the harder she’s stabbed with the knife.

She tries her hardest to picture a change, as she gets older
She stopped fooling herself because she knows things will only get colder

Occasional beatings strengthen her, but emotionally scar her heart
Bruises heal and punches fade but memories stuck inside her like a dart

She tries to forget everything that ever happened from when she was young till today
She looks at other families and how they are so closely bonded and how she fall a stray

She thinks it’s too late, she can’t run away,
But her memories in her mind that’s where they’ll stay.

She wishes someone would understand or get a taste of what she goes through
Their lives are perfect and their happy; but if only someone knew

She tries killing herself twice, once by starvation, once my pills
She couldn’t do it, because she has a baby sis, leaving her, that’s what kills

The only time she’s free is when she sleeps and has beautiful dreams of being free
Only to wake up and cry, she takes a deep breath and counts to three.

Nothing she ever does or say’s will ever make things better, even if she runs away and finds a new home
Because words scar for life and in her mind is where they’ll roam

She wishes she had a mommy who said nice things when she woke up, and had her lunch packed for school
Instead when she sees her coming down the stairs for school she gives a mean look and says that’s the family fool

She doesn’t talk to her at all unless she has something mean to say
Mommy says enjoy another day of failure in school today