Tears from within

Tryin to hide; it’s not working as planned,
Seeing my life; finding it hard to stand,
For I never thought I’d see the day,
I let a guy do it that way.
I felt the warmth; of his hand,
Against my ribs; my neck; my hand.
Feeling the breath ripped from inside,
I had an attack; I couldn’t hide.
I was shaking; couldn’t stay steady,
What have I done; I wasn’t ready.
Days went by; still seeing the guy,
I realise now; the reason why.
He was in love; I started to cry.
A month went on; I still wonder why,
He kept coming back; when i'd said goodbye.