Entirely

Entirely, my life is misery thus far
How I aim consistently searching change
I look awful, scrawny, skinny, drawn,
sunken, lifeless, limp
I blame people for this misfortune
Love that I have of myself, for myself
would never jeopardize beauty,
beauty I urge to restore
Life literally has no meaning without
the natural innate qualities one possesses
As I have ridicule misfortune
I am now curse to display its wealth
Drain of bodily fluids to represent
other than that I naturally possess
For those stricken from birth
Life does not affect their actions or abilities
To succumb to incidence falters all paths
I am unable to obtain, achieve, unable
to thrive in this stricken torture
Life eludes my presence
I am absent
I am lost
My body does not yet allow
to lay and die
Hope for me is restoration
of self
Who I believe and know I am
All else
Wither far away as my ugliness
withers me
I cannot enjoy anyone unless I can
enjoy and rejoice in me
For those who thrive best amongst
unattractive
Make your living elsewhere