hell is for lovers

Im half the country away, I wonder what shes doing?
the head games she played made me less than human
I invested 5 years only to lose my best friend
never once thought that the relationship would end
Now here I am stuck out west
trying so hard not to get deppressed
Im doing my best while swallowing my pride
But its hard to move on when your so dead inside
All of our dreams turned out to be fake
quickly replaced with suicidal self hate
she was the best thing that I've ever had
and i destroyed any chance of getting her back
i cut myself open and bled myself dry
poured out my heart and soul with my insides
I've learned that grown men should never cry
cause the tears get caught up between the shame and pride
fuck this, I am so sick of livin
when my vices in life are relationships and women
it always seems like they keep their agendas hidden
twice I've loved and twice I've been bitten.