I Still Cannot Forgive

Though it has been a long time since it happened.
I still cannot forgive him.
He had hurt me and everyone around me.
In a way more than one.
So tell me.
Should I forgive him?
He is the reason why I am scared.
Scared of any men that come my way.
Scared to speak about how I feel.
Because speaking about how I felt.
Was what allowed him to hurt me.
The manipulation that he had used
In order to make me do what he says.
All because I told him how I felt.
I cannot forgive him.
And though my mom and dad tell me it's gonna be okay
It never seems to be okay.
Because since he had hurt me and everyone around me
In a way more than one.
Things between my parents have drove them apart
And now they are fighting and yelling and sometimes try to kill themselves.
So tell me.
Should I forgive him?
Because now I cannot see my own dad after school,
And my mom has been hurt by everything he has caused.
And lets not forget that I have to take medicine
Just so I can fell better,
And sleep soundly at night,
And to get rid of these thoughts
That no one should ever have.
So tell me.
If someone had hurt you,
Would you forgive that person?
Even if he or she had destroyed everything?
Your family?
Your sleep?
Even your diginity?
Because even if had been years ago,
I still cannot forgive him.