My Fear

My fear has taken over
It rules my very soul
I fear myself, my very rage
All the anger that I hold

There's no speaking or relaying
Of all that I would do
With all this power, this great anger
The presence of which I rue

Who am I
Am I the very one I hate
How I do despise this feeling ever-present
My very waking state

Can nothing help
Is there no taming of this beast
Can this monster be subdued
Or will it be released

I dread the day, I fear the day
The day the beast goes free
Who shall I hurt, where shall I go?
And will the beast be me?

Is it me, are we one
This beast I hate and fear
I'd like to say it isn't true
But alas, it is already here

This is why I have this fear
This burning dread within
This monster causes turmoil, pain
And leads me into sin

I know this beast is here
It has come and made a home
Within my heart, my very soul
In every aching bone

It is here, it's come to stay
A fact I've come to know
But every day and every night
I wish this beast would go

Go far away, leave me be
You evil thoughts inside
Leave me now, give me peace
Allow me to run and hide

This fear holds true
It holds me too
Captive in this state

But soon will come
The day I run
And leave behind this hate