Man Enough

I’m not man enough to fill the hole in your soul.
Your need supersedes my abilities. The expanse of your desire is a chasm that would swallow me whole.
On my hands and knees I have made it this far, understanding that the closer I am to the ground the less it hurts when I fall.
My heart cowers from repeated failure as I have pursued the impossible. I am smitten by the sin of engaging in a battle I cannot win. To please the unpleasable, to satiate the insatiable, and quench the unquenchable.
Although I am broken and torn at the realization that I cannot be what I set out to be my spirit is unperturbed. I have learned a valuable lesson. It’s easy now to see when someone outreaches me; they may feel the need to proceed to chase the vanity with all their vigor. I cannot expend the precious energy of a single lifetime. It is too important to waste on the things that do not satisfy. I cannot feed the starving with anything other than the truth. If they refuse then what can I say or do?

I’m not man enough to fill the hole in your soul.

Isaiah 55
“Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?