An Inner Strife

God please end my agony.
There's something wrong, something strange,
Some inexpressible change,
Shaking the foundations of my life,
Filling every moment with endless strife.

There are things I really need to express,
Things insignificant enough to confess;
O God, why don't you just bless,
And rid me of this mental mess?
I can't take it anymore,
My heart and soul have become sore.

Restless days and sleepless nights,
O God where are the shining lights?
Sadness all over, without reason,
Indifference to weather or any season.
My efforts to find joy are futile,
Please give me a reason to simply smile.

I want to rip open my heart,
And bring out every subdued part.
Every secret buried deep down,
As in a dismal, gloomy town.
Then, to my family and friends I turn,
But looking at their looks of concern,
With my silence I continue to burn.

I'm looking for someone who'll understand,
Who'll stand by me and make me strong.
For the right person, I long,
Who'll be patient while I speak,
Until my eyes become bleak,
Tears of joy replacing tears of sorrow,
And bringing a bright, joyous tomorrow.