In This Place

In this place of grief
I'm faceless, crying in madness
travelling to the painful places
hearing the whisper of the happy places
to the place of time and pain

This is everyday I will
not hear one say "Light will guide me"
In the shadow
of terrible heartbreak
I try to hold my heart together
but you took a piece when you died
to the place I never wanted you to go.

Anger is my friend.
Sadness is my heart.
In this place I look
hoping to get you back.

Mad at the doctors for not helping you.
Mad at myself for not helping you.
Mad at everyone, everything.
That piece of my heart forever gone.
Is my love for Nathan my child for twelve years.
Now I'm in this place of grief and madness.