Really Personal peom about someone's struggle to live |
The cold steel in my hands, Shinny and black. The resistance of the trigger, Itās all so familiar, In the war against my self. Warm wet tears, Run down my face, As I pull it away, Once again. Shock in a friends face, As I tell him what I almost did, He holds me in his arms, And asks me why. I canāt explain, All I do is cry. The soft plastic, Shining metal, Pointed end, Breaks the skin. I drag it downwards, Blood floods to cover my wound, I just wipe it away, Unaffected. My friend walks in, Shock upon his face. Iām unsure why, He cares so much. He grabs a towel, To cover my wound, He holds me tight, Asking me why. The blood doesnāt stop, Because I cut too deep. He carries me to the car, And drives me to the doctor. They just frown, And shake their heads. I wonāt say why I donāt want to live. My friend stays with me the whole time, I donāt understand why he cares so much. They tell me I need counseling, And I shouldnāt be thinking this way, But I donāt go, I know what I need. The cold steel resists to my finger, And I taste oil in my mouth. My friend walks in, As the trigger stops resisting, My eyes say Iām sorry, As the bullet goes through my head. I wrote him a letter, Telling him Iām sorry, And I love him. But the pain I felt inside was too great, It just hurts too much to live my life. He cries at my funeral, Places a pink rose upon my coffin, Heāll miss me, I know. āIāll never forget you,ā he whispers, āIāll help others like you, You wonāt go unknown.ā |