Affirmation

if i stare at the memories long enough, i'll fall into your arms after i've denounced their fidelity
i hate to admit it, i disgust myself
but falling asleep believing in false care is better than the thought of no care at all
the possiblity that it never meant to you what it meant to me
is too much to handle
if i'd read far enough between the lines, i'd find the truth
but why stop there
there's such great drama in what lies beyond
what might be
what if
and i'm better at thinking deep
when the surface is all i need
and all i want
i can't stop there
is it possible to manipulate “what was” far enough to get what you started with and be satisfied
realize that all i'm left is tainted memories
because everything they're telling me they think i want to know
when it changes all my views
i'd be happy with a lie, an omition of the truth
yeah, they'd give me details too
who wants them
all it would really take is just a few yeses or nos from you
but i can't get you within breathing room
and i've tried even though i don't trust myself to
i refuse to take it easy on you
you've done that for yourself
so i guess that's it
affirmative
to all of the above
and all of the below
all the proceeds go to your unbroken pride
i'm still in love with you
you're still mine, just give me a week or two in time
there's no one else i swear
the whore meant nothing more than any touch we shared,
and nothing less
so i guess that's it
affirmative
to all of the above
and all of the below
all the proceeds go to your unbroken pride
i hope you get lost looking for what you've given up
i almost smile to know what you find will never be enough
to break the walls you're putting up
i won't come back to pull them down
you're not worth it now
so i guess that's it