Life as we know it sucks

Things you thought couldn't happen

Current Mood: petrified

Current Music: none

2 kids just died from a car accident last night. 2 kids that I know. For one, my next door neighbor's old boyfriend of like 3 years and she was still in love with him and all and he's dead. It's scary. I mean, think about it, Shane drives. I would kill myself it he died.

But, hopefully God's not cruel. I couldn't deal with that. Everyone I've ever loved has been taken from me. Everyone. And I've barely survived it. I've been depressed on and off these past three years because my life has been ripped apart. <sigh>

I hate thinking about my past. And I hate not having Jacob there to talk to. He said he'd ALWAYS be there! I love him more than anything and it's hard to get over. He was a unique guy. He was different. Very opinionated and very open to my suggestions. And then, all of a sudden, Kelly's coming back and he closes up again, just like he was when I first met him. I'm scared for him. I don't want him to be hurt again, yet I pull myself away from him now.

I don't want to be hurt again, either.

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but i threw you the obvious,
just to see if there's more behind you.
eyes of a fallen angel,
eyes of a tragedy
but i see,
see through it all.
see through, see you