Go Ahead and Ask Me

I don't know you anymore, either...

No, I'm not going to start blogging more than I change my handle, I promise. (Did ya notice that this handle has been up since Saturday, and I was online a lot on Sunday and today.

I've realized that there are many people who I thought I knew pretty well, but it's turning out not to be true. For instance, I'm vaguely annoyed with my younger brother. He's vaguely avoiding my phone calls. We talked on Friday for a while, which was fun. I said, "I'll probably call this weekend," and he just grunted. I called only twice, but I missed him both times.

On the other end of the spectrum, Leslie, a girl at work, whom I wasn't fond of last year, has grown close to my heart this year. (too many commas, I know. Sorry, I'm working on lengthening my sentences in Spanish, and it's spilling over into my English)

Oh, and sadness. My adolescence is coming to an end soon. I've got 4 more months of being a teen.... I've only just gotten used to being an adult, and yet my youngest brother is an adult now too.

Why is it that I never want to move on? I say that I like change, that it's interesting, but I still find myself clinging to the past, both good and bad. I don't want to let go.

I do mass deletions. I clear myself of old blogs. I click buttons that send the last copy of mediocre poetry into oblivion. Optical data... So easy to destroy. (Got a magnet, anyone?)

My hair is fun today. I let it dry itself, wore it down, and didn't put a thing into it. It's windy. My hair is very nonconformist today. And I'm pretending that I care right now. (I've given up the whole "don't be like everyone else" speech. I could care less. Be like everyone else. I'm too lazy to keep up, though)

I don't like it when people say things that aren't true for effect. Harmless example: "Since the beginning of time, man has gone to school." Other example: "[that group] hasn't been active in months." I said something 3 or 4 week ago that got 2 responses. A month prior to that, I said something that got no responses. I gave up on the group, because it wasn't helping me. My fault, I wasn't being accepting of new members. If I didn't know the person, I wasn't responding, so they didn't respond to me. My fault.

Why am I writing today? I'm so talkative again...