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I have five hours remaining on a senior care grant

Kamál (Perfection), 11 Asmá’ (Names), 167 BE – Monday, August 30, 2010 about Sunset Pacific Time

I have five hours left on a Senior Care grant, I have to use it by the middle of September. I'm taking five hours away from care giving. I have to learn not to say anything to Mom because she gets angry. I wish I could explain to Mom the reason I have to have someone staying with her when I'm gone, but she wouldn't believe me.

After 63 years, I'm learning to lie to my mother. I could never lie to my mother, but now I have to because she has Alzheimer's disease and she can't be left alone. My worry isn't that Mom will wander off, Mom may run away, but she won't wander off. Mom has threatened several times to pack her cloths and run away.

I keep the doors locked, so she can't get out of the house without me knowing. I guess now I'll have to hide the suite cases. I don't want to put them in the garage, so I think I'll put them in the closet in the spare room. I have to use the grant, so I'll take a five-hour vacation.