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Inner Workings of the Machine

by Storm Machine

Rated: 18+ · Book · Other · #1946560

When one blog is filled, another one must open.

Coming soon: more work from someone creative, ambitious, and determined - often called a variant of insane/crazy.

Notes: Genderfluid. Preferred pronouns (they/them)

[& denotes married couples]
Immediate Family: soon-to-be-ex-Dilbert, Tempest, Dogbert

My Extended Family: (s)Dad, cousins (K, D, G, J, F, N) I guess it's good to be on speaking terms with someone. Voluntarily. AuntS
Dilbert's Extended Family: SIL (+5 kids)& BIL, FIL's gf (only for holidays, mostly)
Important People I Don't See Enough: Owl + Partner, Paradise ICON crew (which owl is a part of)
People I've Known a Long Time/Long Distance: Doc & [husband], Sheer & DocSheer, Mrs. Light & [husband], Trillium & Diego (not married but close enough), Steph
Local People: MotherDroid, Owl&Partner ... There are about to be new people on this list, because, well, I'm evolving. And it hurts.

DnD: used letters, S (DM), D(doctor), Y(because I like him!), K(old RPGer friend who also attends church), P(church guy who does game night and is local and our families are also friends), A (went to church but moved back to Chicago, moved back locally then i moved)
Tempest's friends: I don't know very many of her local friends. She's got an internet buddy who also talks to CousinK's younger daughter. the younger daughter is DRAMA.
Dogbert's friends: Has a new group of friends based on a Pokemon thing and they have a DnD club at school and outside of school. Lucky kid!

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Brandiwyn🎶

Jan 26, 2024 at 10:14am
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It occurs to me that while at first glance, his reactions seem supportive, some of it may be financially motivated on his end. Shared parenting and you getting an engineering job would both impact the state's child support calculations.

Storm Machine

Jan 24, 2024 at 2:11pm
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He had actually mentioned that specifically.

Brandiwyn🎶

Jan 24, 2024 at 11:06am
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Did you ask the attorney about the inheritance? Assets are assets.

Also: *hugs*.

Storm Machine

Jan 21, 2024 at 12:16pm
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It's part of a business - we could split the yearly maintenance fees and each get a week vacation every year. I'm thinking about it, like so many other things.

He said today he doesn't want to tell the kids until after my daughter's finals week. She already knows, but OK.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jan 21, 2024 at 1:27am
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Sometimes when the decision is finally made the 'fighting' ends. You both know that the path forward isn't trod by looking behind. Therapy will help with that.

Can the vacation property be lived in year-round? (Me, be nosy... no response expected. My cousins' summer-shanty would have had to be winterized.)

Kåre Enga in Montana

Jan 17, 2024 at 2:45am
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Priorities... The 'house' isn't #1 imho. Leaving should be #1. Finding a place that's suitable is fine; be prepared to make sacrifices. A 2 bedroom may work. Keep the price within the means of what the new job offers.

Lawyer... kudos for doing that. Let the lawyer deal with any legal aspects.

Counseling! Again, kudos, it may or may not be fixable but that will become clearer over time.

The noodles... you may be over-reacting. But that's what counseling is for. The underlying issues need to be found and dealt with.

I hope this works for you. Relationships are precious, even when they need to be redefined, even when they need to end.

And remember... unsolicited advice sometimes stinks. That's why we have garbage bins.

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Storm Machine

Dec 24, 2023 at 5:44pm
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Time by volume instead of length: A full day versus a long day.

We all have those encumbrances of relationships we drag with us. Or, maybe not all of us. But I'm tired of it.

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Kåre Enga in Montana

Dec 22, 2023 at 9:52pm
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Time by volume... like filling up a balloon or a room or... I dunno. My morning routine was about 1 meter squared... cut in half. How many squares can I stack in a day? What's the size of my room/body/life I inhabit?

I'm filling up my time dog paddling through this experience in Thailand. I figure that swimming is better than drowning. Been there before.

My relationship... is rocky at the moment. Nice 1 minute snuggle this morning; but frankly, I want more. Regardless of his issues... I could use a therapist to help me deal with mine.

My back is doing somewhat better with daily exercise (or exorcise as I call it). I don't take good care of myself when I'm alone. I shouldn't be alone.

My chiropractor friend told me a long time ago (over 20 years) that one of my issues was my mother. She used Bio-Energetic Synchronization Technique (B.E.S.T.) if I remember right. When my mother died last year at age 99 I felt a weight lifting. I was 'free'. Mind you, she'd become a sweet old lady; but, my inner child still remembered the Before Times. I find it sad in retrospect.

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Kåre Enga in Montana

Nov 21, 2023 at 11:13am
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I think I have to thank May, Michigan and Keith. T'was 1999 and I became a poet. My Muse broke out of its chains. Come to think of it... it was a crossroads.

I don't market. Could I? Should I... *shudder*. I'm fortunate to get out of bed everyday. There were times in the past when that wasn't guaranteed.

80k is impressive. I have focused on blogs this November but even that's just 14k.

I think you're right about creating and sharing. Focusing on the process will get results... in time.

Kåre Enga in Montana

Oct 29, 2023 at 12:23pm
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Tech... can't live without it these days. Drives me nutters at times.

Marketing? I'm fortunate to just stay semi-happy-awake-functioning-whatever.

Very stressful week.

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March 3, 2023 at 3:44pm

#1045893

I am what I am, and I'm not what I'm not.

I'm not the asshole. I'm not the narcissist.

I feel like I'm standing on shifting sands. On one hand, Dilb agreed he needs to change his health. I still don't think he gets how close he was to a heart attack. He's blaming me for the reasons he is not home. He blames me because I take the kids everywhere, and 4 nights a week I am gone between kids' activities and my own.

He worked late before I did this. And he will work late again, whether I'm home or not. I refused to wait for him, and I did things to make myself happier. He's complained in small or large ways since, that I'm not home. He could choose to work out in that time. Or to cook himself something healthy to eat. Or a number of other things LIKE HANGING OUT WITH HIS FUCKING CHILDREN. He chooses to work late, over and over and over again.

I feel like I'm getting gaslit. And I am. Whether or not it's because of his neurodivergence or his narcissism that won't let him see him the way the kids and I see him. I'm not changing for him. I deserve better.

I'm slowly processing through the things he said last night. Like he refuses to go to therapy because he's "fine". He's not. This isn't going to work. It's just him saying what he thinks I need to hear so I don't do anything drastic. Meanwhile, it's time to update my damn resume.

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