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Journal entries of my life as a writer. |
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This is a journal of my writing life since I joined the Writing.com community of writers. This is such a different place for me, I think it's a good idea to document my new writing adventures. |
July 5 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends "  When you look in the mirror... what do you see? Who do you see? Are you happy with the image? When I look in the mirror, I see a vibrant, young, intelligent woman of the world. I like who I am. I like myself inside and out. I have a sturdy build, but full figured women were favored during the plague because they had a better chance for survival. I do believe in survival of the fittest and I stay as strong as I can in body and mind. |
| July 5 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" What was the most important thing that happened yesterday? Several things happened yesterday. I got a chance to yack my head off and talk about all kinds of ancient history. It was like a gossip session and then later I got to let out the secret that I still care about my ex husband. You look up Bouyssounouse for California credentials and there we both are. We both ended up teaching math in k-12 in California. He keeps his credential up to date and mine just sits there on the other tab because my credentials are expired. I also sewed together my quilt top for my crazy quilt. It's a sixteen patch with a seventeenth square left over. Someone actually thought I bought the squares. Rude and impossible... I am looking at piecing the backing fabric next. |
| July 4 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" What funny things I remember on this date? I remember we used to have our own fireworks celebrations in our backyard. I thought the snakes were magic. It was that little pellet that we touched a match to and it turned into a wormy growth. I'm sure science can explain it, but I was fascinated by it. I remember we had a bottle rocket, but the bottle wouldn't stand up. I couldn't figure out how it was supposed to work, unless the bottle was steadied or was more heavy. The sparklers were a lot of fun, drawing in the air with the different colors. Later in life I got to see great big fireworks shows with really dangerous fireworks. I think they call it pyrotechnics. Adding music to go along with the show makes it very special. I remember 4th of July celebrations being fun times. 4th of July isn't as fun anymore, but I like the memories, even the ones spent holding my very scared dog and calming her so she wouldn't run away. Kids scared her with fireworks when she was a puppy, so fireworks and thunder made her crazed to get away, even breaking windows to get out of the house. I still believe in getting pound puppies. That dog had more good times than bad with us. |
| July 4 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" What was your favorite family outing? Did you go somewhere? What made it special to you? All I can think of is a series of outings when my family went on ten day backpacking trips together while I was growing up. I loved the whole experience. Going uphill with a thirty five pound pack was hard, but well worth the effort. I liked having everything we needed right there with us. The beauty we saw can't be seen anywhere else. The peacefulness without the busy city life was fantastic. I remember thinking how hard it must have been to build the John Muir Trail. John Muir has a place in my heart. Thanks to him, our family got along for ten days out of the year. We were too tired and too dependent on each other to fight. I know I had a rare opportunity to go on all of those wonderful trips. I know there are very few people who get to go backpacking. It's a dangerous family vacation, but we did just fine. My mom was on the heavy side, but she made it the whole way just like the rest of us. My brother was so short the first year, the backpack was almost as long as he was tall. You could just see his hat over the top of the backpack and the bottom half of his legs. He was ten and I was twelve our first time out for ten days. We followed the same trip my parents went on for their honeymoon backpacking trip, where my dad got altitude sickness. We had a book and we went by that book. We were prepared and we had practice hikes to build us up to prepare for the adventure. It was like we were in another world, it was so different from what we had on a daily basis. I know backpacking isn't for everyone. It's like advanced camping. I wish more people could experience that one of a kind experience. It's not like anything else. I feel like it changed my life. It made me feel more alive than anything else. It felt so good to be alive. I'm not sure if I will ever go backpacking again, but I do have wonderful memories to keep me company. |
| July 3 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" Imagine a New Way to Read, one 3D-Printed Book. This must be a different use for these new 3D printers they use to make machine parts. I think the whole concept is very interesting. Using the technology so that children can feel the shape of the pictures and text in well known books is fantastic. I hope everyone is able to learn to read, including the blind. I'm guessing the shapes of the letters are easier to feel than embossed paper or raised ink. This is an interesting alternative to Braille, which is another way for the blind to learn to read. Raised letters are probably easier for kids to handle, than learning to six dot code of Braille. https://mashable.com/2014/07/03/3d-printed-book |
| July 3 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" Honestly, evaluate the way you respond to a crisis situation. Are you happy with the way you react? This is an intetesting prompt. I had a situation when I was a Unit Leader at a Girl Scout Summer Camp. Out of the corner of my eye I saw one of the girls take off running into the forest, heading towards the highway. All I could think of was her getting lost or running out in front of an oncoming car on the road. I took off running after her and told her she might as well stop running because I was going to have to keep running after her. She fell to the ground after I said that and I asked what was wrong. It turned out she had just started her period and she thought she was dying. I had to explain menstruation with her and let her have some of my pads. I will never forget that event and I wish more girls would be taught the facts of life so they don't panic when it happens. As far as responding well to the situation goes, I didn't have any other choice in the situation. I was responsible for the counselors and children in the unit. I can't lose a kid or have one run over by a car on my watch. I remember some of the counselors used to get the kids to behave by telling them they better not get Sunshine upset. They don't want to see me mad. I thought it was a very funny and effective tactic. That same group got to see me mad when they left a kid behind in the unit who had the same name as me. The kids told them they were leaving her behind, but they thought the kids were talking about me. So I went with them instead of taking my two hour break for the day. I don't think they were happy I chose to tag along. There have been all kinds of situations where I have had a cool head and handled things well. My decision to run for my life to get away from people coming into my house in South Lake Tahoe was the end of my property ownership and the end of my teaching career. It was the right decision to leave the area for my own safety. One of my stalkers was escalating because he failed in trying to get my credential taken away from me. I never lost my credential. It just expired. I had everything done to renew it, but I was in South Dakota when it expired. Why did I need a California credential? Overall, I feel I handle difficult situations well. I think my years in Girl Scouts taught me emergency preparedness pretty well. I'm fast on my feet and can think of ideas of how to get problems resolved fairly well. |
| July 3 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Tell us about a movie or book scene that you relate to on a personal level. I was really shocked about what I read in The Queen's Arrow by Mercedes Lackey about the Queen's Own. It feels like the book described things I'm able to do. The Queen's Own is a personal guard for the queen who can sense if someone wants to harm the queen, so she can fend off the attack to protect the queen. The scene that struck me was when the character was found to be taken to the school to be trained in the use of her abilities, she was in a ditch hiding under the road and the herald was able to find her there with the use of his abilities. I find the entire herald series of books fascinating. I just love reading about people having psychic powers and using magic. The heralds can speak telepathicly with their horses (companions). The companions are supposed to be the spirits of dead heralds coming back to life again to be in a partnersip with the current heralds. I liked the idea of having a lifelong companion. The other part I found interrsting is these heralds are notorious for having a high sex drive. The whole concept is very intetesting to me. It's a whole other world where the people with special abilities are the peace keepers and judges and travel all around helping people. It sounds cool. |
| July 2 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" While walking in the park one day... Who do you encounter? What memories enter your mind? I have spent a lot of time in parks. I have run into all sorts of people at the park. I used to hang out at parks while I was living in my car in Southern California. It got pretty scary because so many people hate me so much. They called the cops on me all the time. But there were other times when people were nice to me and some of them even talked to me. I liked watching the exercise classes and the sports teams. They were interesting. The international soccer players were fascinating. The little kids with the little soccer balls learning coordination and following instructions were fun. The birthday celebrations were fun to see, too. I even saw a giant game board people could use outdoors. I liked seeing the people use the parks well. I even saw an art class at the park. I was happy to see people helping people. It did my heart good. Even though I was in danger, I did get some wonderful memories along the way. If I could get people to stop being so hateful towards me, I would. Parks are public places. I have the same right to be in a park that everyone else does. So I was forced to park hop. I could only spend small amounts of time at each park. Sometimes they would leave me alone and I could enjoy myself for a while. I did enjoy having meals at the park and writing and scrapbooking and painting and making earrings. I even made Christmas cards for my family. I mailed off earrings and tiny paintings to my family. My cousin was so happy with hers, she said she framed the two I gave to her. She actually put my artwork on the wall in her home. I was so happy someone in my family was impressed with one of my accomplishments. It happens so rarely that it just feels wonderful. Later she told me her sons painted them, but oh well. At least she framed my artwork. That's something. |
| July 2 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" You are locked in a room with your greatest fears. Describe what is in the room. Okay, first of all this blows my mind because I'm afraid of being homeless and I would be in a room. Second of all, this feels like a psych eval question. Thirdly, I am also afraid of not having enough food and fluids to avoid dehydration, so if I was locked in, I wouldn't be able to provide for my own care. I would be in prison and would be at the mercy of my jailers. Scary. No mention in the prompt about basic needs for survival, making it seem even more like a psych eval. Go ahead and shrink your head around the fear of being locked in a room. Does that mean the locked room is inside the locked room with me? This is a real mind blower. |
| July 2 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Celebrating the 4th of July I have celebrated this holiday in different places and I was reminded that it is a US holiday, because it was just another day when I was in a foreign country on that day. My favorite fourth of July memory was spending it with one of my adopted families along the side of a lake, with a barge of fireworks in the lake and radio music to go along with the show. I miss being close to those people like I was for so many years. At least I have fond memories to keep me company. |
 Yesterday I decided to go through my blog entries and pull out the poems. I created items for them in my portfolio, so people could find them and possibly review them. They are very interesting all collected together. The prompts made them so different from my other poems. I think they're some of my better poems. I'm going to make this a super long entry by listing them below. One wasn't actually written to be a poem, but when I was looking for the poems, it just cried out to be included.
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| July 1 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" What does forgetting mean to you? This is a very interesting prompt since it has to do with how the brain functions. It was a while ago when I studied this. So maybe this is a bit of a memory test. What I remember is that there are neurons and synapses and there are electrical sparks or explosions and memory is a matter of linking the neurons together with the synapses. I hope I'm spelling correctly. So my understanding of forgetting is that link or connection to that memory being broken, so the brain can't get to the information anymore. But if people associate things in different ways, there could be more than one connection to that memory and something could trigger access to that forgotten memory through a different synapse connection to the same memory. Short term and long term memory are handled differently. Short term memory doesn't last as long as long term memory. The trick is to figure out how to get memories from short term memory to long term memory. In education, lots of repetition and reviewing is done to help the process. Some things taught in school need to be stored in long term memory because they are needed in higher levels of education and into adulthood. Multiplication tables is one example. It is taught in the primary grades and is needed in algebra and beyond. Students spend years practicing their multiplication skills before they take algebra, where it is vital to passing the course and the course is required for graduation in some states. So when a math teacher has an algebra student who cannot multiply, several teachers failed to help the student or there could be limitations that cannot be overcome. So I started on science and wandered into math. Oh well. I think I kind of covered what I wanted to say. I feel like this is a test question. I feel like going and double checking if I got it right or not, but I will leave it as is. |
| July 1 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " Take a nursery rhyme and create a new story. I believe you can do better than the black plague... Hey diddle, diddle The cat and the fiddle The cow jumped over the moon And the dish ran away with the spoon So this was a wedding celebration for the dish and the spoon. The follow up story chronicles the dishspoon family and their cup and bowl children. Of course the cat and the fiddle entertain at all of the family gatherings. The moon brings the ambiance and the super athletic cow is always busy getting everyone involved in activities and up for dancing. It just continues from this point. That's all I have at the moment. |
| July 1 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" In your opinion, what is the best 21st century romance film and why? (If you haven't seen a romantic movie in the past 14 years, then use a 21st century book - and get out to the movies soon!) I'm off by one year. This one is from 1999. There are lots of romance and romantic comedies that I enjoy. Message In A Bottle is my choice for today's prompt. A widower sends love letters to his dead wife inside of bottles and throws them into the sea. People find them and frame them and put them up on the wall. A research newspaper writer stumbles onto the story and tracks down the writer of the love letters. Of course they end up together. I just really like the idea that this man sent out his love and his loneliness and a woman tracked him down and brought new love to his life. It was like love calling to love to bring two lonely people together. This movie gives me hope that I will find another man to love who will love me back. I'm a serial monogamous woman. |
 I just found out I won round two of The Dime Raffle. I think that means I get gift points and a Risk Taker merit badge. The gift points will help support my contest. So that is double cool. |
| June 30 Blogging Prompt for "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" These are my final words. In many movies characters are given that moment right before they die to say their final words. What will be your final words? Bonus: What are the circumstances of your dramatic demise? I guess my final words would be, "So long cruel world. I hope people figure out how to be helpful and supportive." As far as how I will die goes, I don't really know how that will happen since there have been so many attempts on my life and I'm still around. I know that sounds bad, but my stalkers want me to be dead and they want me to stay dead. It drives them insane that I just keep waking up after each and every attempt they make. I wonder when they will just give up. I don't know why they keep banging their heads against the wall about it, year after year. I'm already terminally ill and still going strong. Let me live my life well and forget about the cruelty. Moving on... |
| June 30 Blogging Prompt for "Blogging Circle of Friends " June 30 is Meteor Watch Day. Write a story, poem, opinion, or educational piece about a meteor. Have fun. See The Meteor Go See the meteor go Doesn't it shine? Is it a falling star? What's the difference? Where do they come from? They come from far, far away So they are just huge chunks of rock? Yep. Imagine what sent those rocks flying |
 I'm a blogging winner. This is so shocking to me. I saw that I was tagged in a newsletter and I wondered why. I skimmed through it and found that I won three times. The "Blogging Circle of Friends " group has me as second place for the quarter for how many blog posts I've done. I tied for first place for May and June for number of blog entries for the "Blog City ~ Every Blogger's Paradise" group. This is really cool. |
| June 30 Blogging Prompt for "30-Day Blogging Challenge ON HIATUS" What is your most controversial opinion? Why do you stick by it despite its unpopularity? My most controversial opinion is that religions are cults who brainwash people into believing they are the one true religion when their own diety is not religious. I stick by this because I am not aware of children being taught about all religions before they come of age to make their "choice" to choose which religion to join. They are taught about one religion, so there is no choice. They must "choose" the religion that is presented to them. I believe in freedom to practice the religion of choice for people because freedom to choose is right. But these religious people should be staying within the lines of the law, not committing crimes and withholding evidence (a crime) and protecting the criminals. (Child molesting religious leaders being protected by the religious order) Get rid of the bad seeds. Clean house. Show that religion is good and religious people are good. I believe taking a vow of celibacy is unhealthy and abnormal and in my theory (not proven) could possibly lead to issues. Having a healthy sex life is normal, even if it's just with yourself. Children should be taught the facts of life before they could start having sex so they can make educated decisions, instead of allowing the hormones to be the guide. Do you want a baby? If the answer is no, then abstain or use protection. Let's feed the little darlings that story that they should be in love with the person they have sex with. Let them find out about casual sex later in life. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. This means everyone should be good and do right. If this is the way you were raised, then you should live by it and show how wonderful your religious upbringing is, instead of doing wrong and making your religion look bad. I was raised without religion, but my family does celebrate Easter and Christmas. It took a long time before I learned about those holidays having anything to do with religion. I was raised to be independent and polite and courteous and to hold my tongue. I was raised to help others. I was raised to believe a job worth doing is a job worth doing well. Both of my parents were raised with two different religions, yet they believed their two children would be just fine being raised with no religion and they should be allowed to choose their own religion if they so desired. I don't have a problem with religions providing a sense of community and acting as a support group for each other. I don't have a problem with religions teaching people to be good and helpful in the community. I don't have a problem with religions having social gatherings and providing child care and education, as long as it is just as good, if not better than other schools. Children should not be cheated out of a quality education just because they want religious education. Religions who have schools must be vigilent and be the very best they can be so those students will do well in higher education (go to college, university or trade school) and in the workplace. I have seen poor examples of religious education cheating students with my own eyes and even though there are many problems with public education, I saw children receiving better education in public schools. This saddens me that parents are paying money out of pocket for lessor quality education than those parents only paying for school supplies. I have been introduced to several religions and I haven't seen any I want to join. Some religions seem to not be for women or treat women as less than equal to men. We are all equal in the law. Some religions seem to teach that marriage is about the wife bowing down to the man, even if the man is wrong. A marriage should be between two coequals sharing their lives together as a team. Religions who believe homosexuals should not be allowed to be legally married are hateful. It's a matter of equality. If you are supposed to love all of God's creatures, then you are supposed to love homosexuals because God created them. They have a right to have the same rights as heterosexual people. Homosexuals are just another minority struggling for equality, like the slaves fighting for freedom and equality and women fighting for freedom and equality. Homosexuals are fighting for equality. All mankind are created equal. I am an agnostic. Can you convince me that your religion is the right religion for me? Go ahead and sell me on your religion. Maybe I just don't understand your religion well enough. |
 I read something yesterday and it made me think about how it could be taken more than one way. It was about helping people and it smelled like my stalkers. They spent a great deal of time explaining to people that their study was about helping me. They have tried to help me to my death. I challenge anyone to show how they have tried to improve my life in any way, other than offering an enrichment program for gifted students.My stalkers have a long list of horrible things they say about me. They rely on people thinking they are telling the truth because of who they are and that nothing I say should ever be believed. I am locked in a power struggle with a research corporation who can't back up their statements and point to anything I do or say as bad or wrong. It's hard to find anything they say that is positive about me at all. So who are people to believe? There is a fake porn site with surveillance footage I have no access to and they say I willingly posted it. How? They say I'm into rape sex. Why? They say thousands of pages of my writing is just gobbly gook or all about my sex life or my porn life or about orgasms. They try anything they can think of to prevent people from finding things out for themselves and only believing the lies they tell. They told people my resume was a lie and it would be impossible for anyone to do the things I say I have done, yet some people found out it was real. It's a matter of two poeople or groups saying opposite things. Who is telling the truth? Will the average person even care about finding out the truth? Or will they just believe the people who say they are the experts because they have been tracking me all of my life? Why does that make them experts? They don't talk to me directly, except for isolated times. They have so many facts wrong and they try to paint me as a horrible person with everything they do. I have exactly two negative performance evaluations in my work career. One was a write up for laughing and another was a write up for refusing to write someone up for struggling with thyroid cancer. The rest are outstanding. I have what I need to back up my careers and my proof of education. I even have proof of my artistic ability. Does making crazy quilt squares make you a crazy person? Of course not, but has everyone even heard of a crazy quilt? No. So they say it's crazy. If they don't understand a word or phrase I use, then they say I made it up. They use the same tactics over and over throughout the years. It's obvious I have received some education. It's also obvious that I have writing that is impossible to plagiarize. I have historical facts and the law on my side. They say they give me aversion therapy and treatments. Does that mean what they are doing is legal? Using these terms does not mean what they are doing is legal. Saying I'm a mental health patient does not discredit me. All mental health professionals are supposed to experience being a mental health patient. They say I have delusions and only think that I'm being stalked, when they are my stalkers trying to prevent people from believing me. How do you handle it? Who do you believe? Yes, it does sound crazy for one person to be fighting a giant government funded research corporation that helps make healthcare policies and assists the military. I'm a corporate whistleblower. Hear my cry. I send out warnings about their study turned into stalking. Do people listen? How many people are going to follow the criminal research corporation into a horrible future? How many people have they already harmed? Who will be the next group of people they sabotage with their lies? |
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