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| It feels like I'm hanging on the side of a cliff. The gear I have placed hanging tight into the rock. Though in some places the Rock is showing its age. It feels like I have ran out of gear and hanging there waiting for others to come help me out. Then again its not easy handling a death on your own. Everyone keeps being surprised by how well it looks like am handling it. When really I'm falling apart. But I know outside it looks like I'm handling it. But not really have things I need to do and sadly I have too. |
| Well it's all in storage till I get the paperwork on the next step. The frustration is that my mail man decided that my box was vacant. So emptied my ox and put a tag up saying vacant. Just one more thing to add to my world. So I get to let my boss know I need to clock in late so j can deal with all of this. But I made it home and brought my fathers cat with me. |
| Thank you my friend. I do tend to undercut myself when talking because I write how I am feeling. I tend to keep going even when I should give up simply because for me it's easier to keep going. This blog and the comments of my friends shows how far and strong I am even if I dont show or feel it. Comments have helped push aside thoughts. Actions have at times drugged me past frustrations. One could say thanks to my stubbornness and this wonderful community I keep going. Thank you friends and family. Your words at time have been the spark I needed to keep going. |
| So little time to do so much. Not sure how I'm going to get this all done in the little bit of time I have left in the town my dad lived in.i figure I get the stuff taken care of, not counting furniture. One rig I dont know what to do with while the other is going into storage till spring. Where I am storing my dad's bike is willing to help me sell it. With all going on I hope I get this all straightened out. |
| Day 7 it really does not feel that way. Today I get boxes to go through and repack for storage. Some of them I will be taking with me but not a lot. I need to get the bike into the shop for storage but need to go through boxes first so I make sure everything is together and not scattered. Just yesterday going through books I found a mess of electronics and hidden in the middle of all that was break pads. Break pad that were brand new still in the wrapping. I wonder what other surprises I have hidden in boxes. I can say one box will be the memorial box to my dad his wife and their cats. I just dont know what I am going to do with them all.if I do an honoring alter I know I need containers for each individual and their picture. But I do have one container I dont know who it is. I can guess only do to how long dad had the container but I might have who it is off. I say this because of a trip one cat went missing and I was told she ran off. But with that in mind the container might just hold my first cat. I dont know. But as I sit here writing I recall one person that might have been told simply because I know my dad tried to hook me up with him. Ah, how time flies. Just remember to do yourself a favor and keep your documents all together. When the time comes for you to leave as lest you know they will be able to figure out where it is to all go then. |
| Still not really feeling all that is going on but I can say I'm hanging on here. It does not feel that way but I am. Each thing moved is an other step forward. each step forward is a little less I have to do tomorrow. I found a staging point for my dad's bike so that it can find a new home. the money from that will go into his account so that I don't make a mistake with the estate. Any thing I sell is going into his accounts till I am done with all of this. It feels wrong to do so, but this will save me a big head ache come next years taxes for that can come out of his accounts to cover what I am getting from him. God, I am trying to do the right thing. if all else fails at lest by putting the money into the account if anyone or thing comes looking for it my accounts will be free of it. Not counting possible storage fees for things I cannot get into his storage. |
| Still not really feeling all that is going on but I can say I'm hanging on here. It does not feel that way but I am. Each thing moved is an other step forward. each step forward is a little less I have to do tomorrow. I found a staging point for my dad's bike so that it can find a new home. the money from that will go into his account so that I don't make a mistake with the estate. Any thing I sell is going into his accounts till I am done with all of this. It feels wrong to do so, but this will save me a big head ache come next years taxes for that can come out of his accounts to cover what I am getting from him. God, I am trying to do the right thing. if all else fails at lest by putting the money into the account if anyone or thing comes looking for it my accounts will be free of it. Not counting possible storage fees for things I cannot get into his storage. |
| So much going on. Yet time seams to stand still when I try to do anything just to look up and have the day gone. If it had not been for a friend coming over I would have never gotten as much done today. I sat there looking though boxes trying to figure out if things where needed just to look up and find i did nothing. My dear friend on the other hand swept through finding garbage and other things to clear out. Yeah a few things might go missing i wanted but in the long run it is probably for the better. I just wish it felt right to do this........ No.... No i don't. It's just so much to take in that I'm sinking in my own thoughts. I'm missing paperwork i need to find but i think that might be becouse it might not be at this location. Yes I feel guilty not being here for him. Sadly, I could say it was fair play. But, it will never feel that way. There was a time I needed his help and I just got pushed away. Here recently I was in such a deep hole inside I was not able to reach out. Grant it 300 miles apart does not help at all. |
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