Hells Darkest Corner

i regret i only had one to give
i awoke to that grim day
crying instantly
gods and demons of an entire world conspired against me
with unparalleled unity they kept me from you

and i am so sorry

they made damn sure i would never see you
have the chance to be there
clouded me from ever knowing
until of course
when it was all too late

and i am so ashamed

no disgrace hit me harder
i've never felt so little of a man
even with the world against me
there is no excuse in what i did
i can't find it in me to forgive myself
ever

and i am truly torn

the ignorance that i spewed
is the mark of my deepest stain
nothing weighed on my soul heavier
than all the time i wasn't there
all the things i never did
not being anyone to you

and i am so pathetic

to clearly see you there for the first time
it was so inherently obvious to be certain
that in you was a natural magnificence
that no one or anything could compare to
truly a soul most beautiful

and i am so unworthy

my vow to harbor no regret on my life
was utterly shattered that day
that speeding car taking you away
snapped to life all the things i wish i could have said
and birthed a hollowness of times i never shared

and i am such a failure

please, for yourself, keep you head high
for if your gaze should ever lower
you would only meet my eyes
because there is no one more undeserving than me
and you are too good to take concern in my shortcomings

and i am the fool

my guilt only tastes of the missed opportunities
to learn from your natural wisdom
being able to laugh with you
helping you with the troubles of life
supporting you when opposition came your way
celebrating achievements
or simply enjoying you company

and i am so useless

dwell not on my inadequacy
because your are better
so for yourself
shine brilliantly
Taiyo

~for they are all stars to me~