Forever alone

My heart suffers from the bleeding wounds
destined to never dry up and become scars
Countless amounts of blood I have spilled
in the endless path of my life in loneliness

Year after year, decade after decade of this
red trail lingering like a cursed snake dying
Right beside is the invisible trail of my tears
silently mourning in vain my lonely pain

As far as I can see the future is going to follow
the same pattern of unwanted solitude for me
Will I ever get used to my eternal destiny as an
anomaly with the smell of repell sealing my life

Sometimes I can't help to think their rage and hate
regarding my existence is righteous and not to debate
Do I have such a non-existence of self-insight after all
then my final act is nothing but a quick bullet in my skull

Then why's my determination to prove them wrong of me
are their eyes sharper than mine which obviously can't see
I am seriously starting to think of the possibility I'm insane
am I so devilish evil and twisted the issues lie's into my brain