Pretty Hate Machine

**I must specify that I did not write these lyrics. My assignment was to take pre-existing lyrics from various songs, and combine them to make sense and to "flow". For those of you who are familiar with Nine Inch Nails, you will see a sampling of the entire Pretty Hate Machine CD here. I took all of the songs and re-did the lyrics, comprising a performable, workable piece of monologue.**




just when everything was making sense
he took away all my self-confidence
now all that i've been hearing must be true
i guess i'm not the only girl for you
why are you doing this to me?
am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
why am i seething with this animosity?
i think you owe me a great big apology
but that's what i get
how can you turn me into this?
after you just taught me how to kiss you
i told you i'd never say goodbye
now i'm slipping on the tears you made me cry
i still recall the taste of his tears
echoing his voice just like the ringing in my ears
my favorite dreams of him still wash ashore
scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore
he always was the one to show me how
back then i couldn't do the things that i can do now
this thing is slowly taking me apart
grey would be the color if i had a heart
in this place it seems like such a shame
though it all looks different now,
i know it's still the same
everywhere i look he?s all i see
just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be
i used to be so big and strong
i used to know my right from wrong
i used to never be afraid
i used to be somebody
i used to have something inside
now just this hole that's open wide
i used to want it all
i used to be somebody
i'm not sure of what i should do
when every thought i'm thinking of is you
don't take it away from me
i need you to hold on to
Heaven's just a rumor he'll dispell
as he walks me through the nicest parts of hell
i still dream of lips i never should have kissed
well he knows exactly what i can't resist
he gave me the reason
he gave me control
i gave him my Purity
my Purity he stole
did he think i wouldn't recognize
this compromise
am i just too stupid to realize
stale incense old sweat
and lies lies lies
he gave me the anger
he gave me the nerve
carry out my sentence
will i get what i deserve
i'm just an effigy to be disgraced
to be defaced
his need for me has been replaced
and if i can't have everything
well then just give me a taste
why's it come as a surprise
to think that i was so naive
maybe didn't mean that much
but it meant everything to me
well he just left me nailed here
hanging like Jesus on this cross
i'm just dying for his sins
and aiding to the cause
i'll cross my heart i'll hope to die
but the needle's already in my eye
and all the world's weight is on my back
and i don't even know why
what i used to think was me is just a fading memory
i looked him right in the eye and said "goodbye"