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 |  Now my story begins in nineteen-dickety-two... |
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2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me, Threatening the life it belongs to And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud And I know that you'll use them, however you want to -Breathe(2AM), Anna Nalick ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** For Daddy, the real world gets fainter and fainter every day. -Homer Simpson Homer, Please Don't Hammer 'Em ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only **
If we shadows have offended,/Think but this, and all is mended,/That you have but slumber'd here/While these visions did appear./And this weak and idle theme,/No more yielding but a dream... -William Shakespeare, A Midsummer's Night Dream |
| I finally did it. I am a red head now. That is all. |
| Having a life makes your weekends shorter. Now that I have things to do, I find myself missing the free time I had. Not that I don't like the things that I'm doing. I'm not so busy that I have no free time at all. It theory, it should make me more disciplined so I use my free time effectively. I'm trying to work on that. Especially since NaNo starts tomorrow and the pillow I'm making for my sister's birthday is turning out to be a bigger project than I had first intended. Friday night we had the unexpected surprise of helping out with a children's Halloween party. The gamers of the LARP we've been attending were asked to make a haunted trail. That was pretty cool figuratively and literally. I got to wear a black mask with these glasses that lit up underneath it. Pretty damn scary if I do say so myself. I had S'mores for supper because I don't like hot dogs. (I should say that every once in a blue moon I get a craving for a chili dog or Spanish dog, but I'm usually fairly disgusted with myself after I eat one.) I have some reviews I need to do later today. After work, I have a small get together with friends. I'm wearing kitty ears to work.  I should have went all out with whiskers and a tail, but I didn't. Anyway, have a good holiday! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only **  I believe in the Grand Pumpkin the almighty gourd that was crustified over Pontius Pie Plate and ascended into oven. He will come again to judge the filling and the bread. -The Simpsons, Treehouse of Horrow XIX |
| Once again, I have failed to even get an interview for a librarian job here. Once the search committee finds their candidates and sets up the interviews, their resume is posted for the staff to see. And upon looking at them, I'll never have the experience that others do who apply for these jobs. One of the candidates won't even have her MLIS until December and she still has more experience than I do. That's pretty much been my life's story in regards to chasing library jobs. In high school, I wanted to work at the public library, but they would only hire students who made the honor roll. While I was earning my MLIS, I was one of the few people who wasn't working in a library already. Then I get my degree and no one wants to hire me because I lack experience. I guess my past four years working in a library isn't enough. *sigh* I don't even need my master's degree for this job. I suppose I may be qualified to apply at public libraries or smaller academic ones. But our public library is cutting back and it would never be a stable job. Now that I've grown accustomed to academic libraries, I'm not sure I want to work in a public library. The thing is, I think our library has a high turn over rate for librarians. If they hired me, I'd probably stay here for years upon years. In a lot of academic libraries, the librarians are treated like professors and have the ability to earn tenure. But not here. So it makes sense to me that a lot of librarians seek employment elsewhere once hired here. I suppose there are things I could do to try to set myself apart and make my resume more appealing. I'm just not sure what those things would be. And do I really have the ambition to do those things? Maybe I should start seeking jobs again outside this library. The thing is, I do like it here. A part of me doesn't want to risk going to a crappy place when I have decent one here. I could be getting paid more if I were a librarian and it seems unfair to Benn not to get a better job. Only because he wants to go back to school and it would be easier if I had a better paying job. He doesn't think that, or if he does, he doesn't tell me. Still I feel that way sometimes. Then there's the fact that I may have to move if I did get another job. Probably not far. Especially since I won't look too far out of Indiana. Or even this part of Indiana. Not to mention that this job gives me a lot of down time I can use towards writing. Not that I've done that much lately, but I have in the past and plan on doing again. I accepted the fact that even if I do get published, I may never make enough money from writing to do that solely. All the more reason to find a better job, I suppose. I do think if Benn's job were more secure, it wouldn't be a huge concern. We're doing all right now. But if his employer goes under, we're back to being screwed again. I'm not overly worried or anything. I'm just thinking about options. |
| If you can figure out this chart, it may help you write a strong female character. http://big.assets.huffingtonpost.com/flowchart.jpeg |
| Okay, I signed up for NaNo. If you want to buddy me, I'm using Sephina as my username. Still can't find how to find others on there... |
| First thing, just an observation I'm made in the last few months, but the lists of updated blogs used to rotate fairly quickly. Within in a day, there would be a list full of new entries. But lately, there's still blogs from two days ago on the list. I have noticed that a lot of the blogs that were around when I first started keeping one have disappeared. Not sure what it means, just an observation. Anyway, I've been considering doing the NaNo thing this year. My reasoning for not doing it in the past are kind of gone now. It used to be that I was working pretty strong on my novels so I didn't want to take time away from them by starting something new. But I've been really bad on doing that lately. I do have a number of ideas for new stories, I just don't know how well planned out they are. But I guess part of the prepping for NaNo could be making an outline this month so I get hit the ground running on Nov. 1. Part of the problem is my motivation and inspiration have dried up. It can come back in spurts if I sit my ass down and make myself write. Perhaps having the goals of NaNo would be a good way to get the fire going under my butt. Another reason I haven't been writing much is because of the loom knitting. I'm enjoying it, but I think I'm starting to see it as a 'have to' since I want to make gifts for Christmas. Which would be another time eater in November. I guess I could rethink the gifts I want to give and make them projects that aren't so time consuming. Perhaps today I will look at my ideas and rethink the knitting projects. |
| Lately, I seem to have friends in need of encouragement, but I find myself lacking in the ability to give it. Not that my attempts at encouragement in the past have probably helped, but I do feel bad at remaining silent. It's not that I don't care. I just don't know if I can live up to or believe any piece of advice or encouragement I could give at this point. Not that I necessarily feel discouraged or depressed myself. I guess I might feel a little lost right now though. I've lost track at what I was aiming at and veered off the path. Now, I'm having problems finding the path again. As with just about everything else, I know what I need to do. I just need to do it. I still feel for my friends who are going through things. Especially since I know a few of them are going through rough times. Maybe a caring smile is better than any forced word anyway. ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** |
| I did have a rather satisfying weekend, but also a bit exhausting as well. I'm still feeling a little lagging, but that could also be because the weather finally took a turn and it feels more like fall. In addition to the partly cloudy conditions making it gray and perfect for sleeping not to mention just laying down and avoiding. I participated in another LARP thing like I did over a year ago in Dayton. Right before I went to Florida for the first time. I have to say that I had more fun at this one. I got to play a rapid bunny several times in this one. So of course it was a lot more fun.  That was on Saturday. Sunday I took the day off and we spent the day in Indy with friends and went to The Melting Pot, a fondue restaurant. Which is a neat place and it takes two to three hours to get through the meal. A very nice experience. I got my hair trimmed yesterday. The stylist straightened my hair for the day. That was a fun experience as I've never really had my hair straightened before. All my attempts at straightening my hair have been dismal failures. The next time I go for a trim in November, I will finally be adding a little color to my hair. I told the stylist I had thought about dying my hair strawberry blond for awhile and she suggested doing lowlights in red. I will trust her expertise in this matter. It does sound like a better way to go about it and ease into the hair dying thing. Sounds like it will be more natural looking too. |
| As I went through our audiobooks this week, a thought about titles occurred to me. It's one I've had before, but going through so many audiobooks for this project brought it to the forefront. All the audiobooks I'm going through are bestsellers. A lot of them had what I'll call generic titles. For instance, the one I found today was called Run for Your Life.It was a murder, mystery, conspiracy type book. I thought any such book could get away with the same title. Granted, I only read the back of the case, so the title may be more relevant than it seems. I can't imagine how. Now if it was a book about a runner who had to win a race to live, or something to that effect, the title would be more appropriate. This wasn't the only title I saw that was like that. It just seems like a good waste of an opportunity to give a book a generic title. Of course, these were all bestsellers. So what do I know? |
| If you've been following my blog, you may know I haven't been writing much. Well, I sat down to today to pick up where I left off only to discover that what I had last wrote is gone. I had written a good amount from where I had left off in July, but now it's not there anymore. I know what happened. My flash drive had the latest copy of Chasing on it, and when I went to transfer a copy to my laptop, I must have misread the date or something and put the old copy on my laptop onto to the flash drive. There's a small hope that the new copy may be on the laptop anyway, but I can't check my laptop until later tonight. But I doubt it. It makes me want to cry and bang my head against the desk. It isn't the end of the world, and I'll just rewrite everything again. But man, it makes me want to crawl into a hole and just give up. Maybe I'll work on another story until I can check my laptop. *le sigh* |
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