I've Never Been Good

Tribute to an emotionally unavailable man incapable of loving himself or anyone else.

I’ve never been good
at saying goodbye,
I’m not one to cling
you won’t see me cry.

I’ve never been good
at facing demands,
at needing someone
or taking a hand.

I’ve never been good
at being in love,
I won’t let you close
when push comes to shove.

I’ve never been good
at learning to trust,
I hide from commitment
and give in to lust.

I’ve never been good
at that give and take,
I can’t loose myself
won’t make that mistake.

I’ve never been good
at letting you know,
that I cared at all,
I can’t let that show.

I’ve never been good
at just being me,
there’s too much inside
I can’t let you see.

I’ve never been good
at taking the blame,
at setting up house
or staking a claim.

I’ve never been good
at telling the truth,
saying I love you
then showing you proof.

I’ve never been good
admitting I’m wrong,
I have to be right
I have to be strong.

I’ve never been good
at living a lie,
so tomorrow I’ll leave
without saying goodbye.