One man's journey to find the way home |
I am an American Baptist ordained minister. I began my life journey in Massachusetts, where I was called to help people understand what it meant to know a loving God. The call came during a time when I was wrestling with how to help my brother Kurt, who was diagnosed with Schizophrenia during my high school years. I was a new Christian by my senior year following trying to understand what it meant for me to care about a person like my brother who others tended to stay away from. After twenty three years in Massachusetts, God sent me to the land of Kansas City where I spent about 35 years of my life. I was a pastor, a resident chaplain, a supervisor in training and most recently a caregiver and security. Everything I have done vocationally has been with God in mind. That does not mean that I am totally comfortable with all the movings of the Spirit. I am now in Erie where I do not know very many people. I came here because of my wife. She is from Erie and coming here was the right thing to do. It just plain made sense. My kids had grown up. I did not like Kansas city in terms of climate and was looking forward to a change. I had become very frustrated vocationally and longed to come to Erie to get a second opinion, because I honestly believed that was what God had wanted for me. I left behind kids and grandkids who I loved!!!! I had two jobs that I enjoyed. They were both very appreciative of my skills and I was making more money with the two jobs than I ever had. I heard more than once. ARE YOU CRAZY? Well I can only say that I am in love with God's leading. I am starting all over again. It has not been easy. Maybe some of you can offer me some words of support. I am lonely despite the fact my wife is with me. She battles depression and has two siblings that are having similar battles. When it is all said I am in a depressed community with a depressed wife and her family. So I begin the conversation.... WELCOME!! |
I made it to one million steps.i am a bit burnt out by the idea of all the steps I have taken. I still have at least 8 miles to smash my record. I am just not motivated. Finances are ok. I am put in a position of starting over. God give me strength. |
Off I go to another workshop on how to be safe. It ought to be interesting. Then I have a couple days to recover before I work 3 days. Good luck to that! If God is for me who can be against me and today I will look at the annuity stuff. Yes I am tired. Keep the calendar in front of me . Three other issues: I'd for Sharon, schedule mammogram and river of life. I don't know about the magic jack. Oh well live and learn. |
More tired, I am staying honest. I have three weeks of wondering what comes next. I pray I make good choices. I am fatigued make no mistake about it. I will get to Friday and then look at a couple weekends. I am looking at 50 plus if I stay the course. I will then have four weeks. And Tim does want to see me in December. So I will act accordingly. God give me wisdom and strength. |
Yeah I am working and yet nothappyasisee otherslounginf and visiting as if there's no work to do, basically getting paid to do little or nothing. It has been a rough day anyway. My time card was messed up and I was left wondering if I would get paid. Top it offan investigation took place while working Walbridge. It was irritating even if I was not involved. I experience my own grief of dealing with my shameas a young adult. When does or does it ever end? |