Wheel of Fortune

The Magician--St. Nicholas

Yes, I am still reeling from the break-up ogf my son's marriage. But so far, he is being strong and continuing to do "the next right thing". I have been able to see my grandkids and physically they are well, and acutually not to bad emotionally as far as I can tell. I am not naive enough to believe there will not be consequences here, but ....we just have to move through time.

I ask God, Ultimate Reality, Mother Goddess, et al to bless my son and his family. And I ask Mother Mary to bless my daughter-in-law, because I cannot yet do that. Most days I'm not even sure what to pray for, just "help"...is all I can get out.

I pulled the Tarot card the Magician from the Tarot of the Saints, and this deck associates St. Nicholas with this card. As I am much into omens, signs, synchronicity, I feel this works well as we move into the Christmas season.

I'm not going to try and jolly myself into a festive holiday spirit this year, but plan to honor this dark time of the year in a contemplative and mystical fashion.

I need to heal and I will honor this need with frequent prayer, meditation. I'm going to invite the darkness, allow myself to sleep and to dream as I need, and know that answers and strength will come.

I've always enjoyed marking the Advent season as many do with Lent, by observing some small sacrifice, and instead of time feasting I plan to observe a partial fast most days.

Interesting, that the Magician is the beginning, card #1 of the Tarot, start at the beginning, spirit infused into matter.

Blessings!