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Limiting Ways

Blog City - Day 1124

Prompt: What may be some of the ways a person might limit or unnerve oneself while dealing with his or her loved ones?

Remaining loyal, even after the dissolution of our marriage,
I deny myself what could rightfully be mine
so as not to leave him broken,
even though
he is the one that called an end
to our time together.
I could fight,
but the disharmony fills me with dis - ease.
I feel broken and lost
Unfettered,
yet grateful for friends and family
that have stepped up to give me their own loyal support
letting me know
they never liked him.
He seemed so distant and standoffish
Cold and held apart
Like he was somehow better than them.
I hold in words I long to say
To scream
To rant
Words I have always held back
For fear of upsetting the balance
I thought we had.
Maybe it's better to have said what I needed to say
So that I didn't lose who I really was
In the long run.