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I've tried to wipe my memories clean. It's not like a computer you know: click on an icon, delete; push a button, reboot. It suits me to forget. Better than remembering each slight, each slice, better than mulling over regrets. I could wallow in self-pity and some of my friends would wallow with me. This is the crux. To die in the past or to survive to die some other day. I need to live in the present so I resent those who wake up each day happy. I don't take happy pills. I need coffee. I would seek oblivion but by then I'm far too awake. For my sake, don't suggest it. I share hoping this doesn't trigger old traumas. I dislike horror movies, don't do drama. I stay off of roller-coasters. No, I can't wipe away old nightmares. Don't give me new ones.

© Kåre Enga [175.284] (4.novembre.2018)

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