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This is my blog about random thoughts and writing.
This blog is about my current life, struggling with bipolar disorder, also random everyday thoughts and trying to work through writer's block.
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October 26, 2005 at 4:29am
October 26, 2005 at 4:29am
#381828
While my life seems like its just a still, standing point I am beginning to wander when my life will start. I'm too old for this. I'm too old to feel like I'm floating like a dried leaf. I should be done college by now, maybe, but I havn't even transfered to a university yet. My boyfriend, Louis, is the only thing that holds me here securely, having him as my love and support. He was so bad, wrong to me, when I first met him and I just loved him and he's grown so much, into someone I don't feel I'm worthy of. We can't get by with government help forever, even if we are disabled by our mental illnesses. I just wish something would change for the better. My gray hairs are bothering me today.
October 19, 2005 at 4:38am
October 19, 2005 at 4:38am
#380449
People in general are strange and cruel and I keep forgetting that. Sometimes the most obvious reason, motive, idea is just blind-sided by cyncism or is it just laziness? Sometimes we are what we are, do what we do and mean exactly what we say, but that is too innocent for most to appreciate and accept without twisting everything out of proportion. Sorry to be hazy here. I just had a difficult day dealing with difficult people and I'm too sensitive.
October 11, 2005 at 7:06am
October 11, 2005 at 7:06am
#378583
It's 7:00 am and I haven't gotten any sleep. I have a paper due tomorrow, or actually a poem/s to hand in for my workshop class and I'm so picky and weird about which ones to use, its taking me forever. I'm only taking two classes now, I used to be a full-time student and worked some of the time. The only things that help that I can even do that is my boyfriend's and family support and the ritalin/other medication. Last week was bizarre for me. My boyfriend and I almost broke up and as I suddenly, mistakenly turned to suicide over what turned out to be nothing, the only thing I wanted to live for was my writing, if not the knowing that writing has the power to save. Everything can change so drastically in a week.

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