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Who in the world ever talked me into this at a time when I was vunerable, remind me to snuff them out at the first chance I get. It's only day 3 and I'm insane already. Hey, wait, I was already headed in that direction.  Anyway, hello all my blogville friends. I know I'm absent quite a bit but don't worry about me. Life is grand right now. Work is busy, life is busy and I signed up for NANOWRIMO like a big dummy.  It's actually fun when you don't have to edit, you just start writing and let the characters say and do whatever they want. Thanks to the The StoryMaster  we have some neat new tricks to motivate us!!! wooo hooooDaddy is doing great and is having some minor 'urethra' surgery in the morning, stepmonster had her gallbladder out on Friday. Speaking of Friday, I made the local newspaper blog this weekend. Seems I came up with this cockamamie idea of dressing up like our mayor for Halloween. When I was putting my costume together, I was trying for a mix between a 70's porn star and a used car salesman... Uh, here's what I came up with..... http://stateportpilot.com/wordpress/2008/10/halloween-fun-at-oak-island-town-hal... Uh, yea, I wrote this blog to procrastinate by NOT writing for Nano...  Hope you all had a great Halloween. Wish me luck with Nano... Luv you, really mean it |
** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Well, you asked about the things that have been keeping me away. Hey, why are you laughing???? Yes, I know he has no clothes on. Yes, I know he is missing, uh, specific necessary parts. So, what is your point????? He doesn't talk back, treat me bad, make fun of me and let's me do what I want. He's the PERFECT man..... Luv ya, mean it Hey, NADDDDAAAAAAA, two in one week!!! Somebody write this down....  |
| Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open. John Barrymore US actor (1882 - 1942) Life changes so fast. First of all, check out my new sig from a very special friend. No, not that kind of friend! Gawd, you people. Nope, the really special kind of friend that you let into your life and realize that they made a huge impact. The kind of friend you can call in times of trouble. The kind of friend you can text all day when you're in a boring class. Yea, that kind of friend. Ok, yea, so there is this guy who has turned my head but that's not the reason for the happiness. We'll talk more about him some other time. The determination sig was given to me because my book is out!!!!!!! I wasn't going to announce it until it was available on Amazon and I actually had copies in my hand but I can't wait. Ok, here's the cover: ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** My prayer has been that my daddy would live long enough to see a copy. I don't have it in my hand yet but my author copies have been ordered. Don't he look great sitting in his golf cart????? I'm very proud of him. I can only hope to have that much happiness and laughter in my life. He is my constant source of joy and an awesome inspiration to all who meet him. Don't believe me, ask fleckgirl He tried to get her to go home with him.  Ok, rambling now. The book is available on the publishamerica website but it takes weeks to get it. I hope to order some to sell on my website and hope it will be available on Amazon soon. See!!! This is why I wasn't going to tell you yet. Anyway, I'll let you know when it's available on all the sites but until then here it is!!!http://www.publishamerica.com/shopping/shopdisplayproducts.asp?catalogid=26721 Luv ya, mean it |
| Well, I mentioned the health issues of last month. To be very blunt, I had the worst case of the 'bathroomitis' that I've ever seen. I lost 8 pounds that I didn't have to loose and you couldn't touch my butt with a powder puff. I gave samples at the doctors, samples at the hospital; both blood and stool. I know, I know...Nothing is sacred here... Anyway, a colonoscopy was next on the list. Uh, NO!! I am NOT 50 yet and I refuse to go early... Uh, ok, six weeks with the shits sent me to the doctor who told the nurse, "She'll have the usual." Well, I didn't figure I had much left to get rid of before the big day so I wasn't too concerned. Well, wrong again!!! There were these little miniature men with hardhats with lights in the front who crawled up in my colon with little chisels and found every last morsel of anything and sent it OUT!!!!The morning I was scheduled to go to the hospital, I pasted 'big red lips' on my ass just for the doctor. It was either that or a bull's eye so he didn't miss. Anyway, nothing, nothing, nothing... Clean as a whistle!! BUT the good news is whatever affliction I had must have been thrown out with the dirty laundry because I'm back to normal Now, wasn't that the most fun colonoscopy you ever heard about.... Just to show you that they can be fun... Watch this...... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QI1go72c5H8 Lou Rawls at his best!!!!! Luv ya, really mean it |
| Happy Labor Day to one and all. August was a month of change for me; some good, some bad. Though a little unnerving at times, the month turned out to be one of the better in my life. A few health issues and some personal reflections kept me reeling all month but things seem to have settled for the moment. Please keep Barb and those in LA in your thoughts and prayers over the next few days. They are certainly going to need it. Though I don't blog as much as I used to doesn't mean I don't think about you and read your blogs. I do comment on occasion. I hope you each have a great Labor Day. I'm gearing up for tax billing.Know that I Luv ya, mean it |
I had the awesome opportunity to spend the evening with fleckgirl. She was visiting her dad in Calabash and we made arrangements to spend some time together.  We did the tourist thing in Oak Island and Southport. I even showed her the 'ugly' lighthouse and we I did some shopping. We took pictures for bugzy is baaaccck!!  and I decided to share them. Fleck did have a strawberry margarita but here we are drinking martinis. She didn't want to see us, she wanted the bartender so...** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** cheers to you, Bugzy! ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Hi Bugzy AND ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** Here's the bartender for you! |
| I did try to make it back by the first of the month but shit stuff happens. I taught myself how to make a website and videos. I was rocking. Check it out... http://sheilamansfieldbell.com/default.aspx Ok, let's do updates on the life and times... Work Gearing up for the busy season. Haven't had time to take a vacation; but working on that. Have lots of vacation time to use. I am NOT complaining! I, at least, have a good job and benefits and don't have to do the restaurant thing anymore. Child He seems happy. They call once a week to check in. They moved to the mountains though I'm not sure what happened to the Houston thing. I guess they'll grow up one day. At least I spent lots of time with him when it mattered so I don't have to live with that guilt. He's grown and has made some good decisions lately so I'm still keeping my fingers crossed. Love Nay, not this time. It was fun, it was happy, it was a diversion. I'm still looking for me but found it unfair to him to string him along. He understood. AND I understood exactly how he felt.  Me I'm in a happy place. Things in my world are looking up. I'm excited about a few things and am learning to love me. It helps when you have supportive friends like you guys who are good for my ego... Puppies The babies are grand. They bring me more joy than anything I could have imagined. I'll post new pictures real soon, I promise! Ok, enough BS about me!! I'm already working on my next book... How about: "Love: the Ultimate Internet Scam" Luv ya, mean it |
| With recent events in my life, I needed a diversion. I submitted my manuscript on the book about my daddy's heart attack, eight minutes without oxygen and long recovery to several publishers in hopes of it becoming a reality. I was contacted by a publisher several weeks ago and have kept it under wraps as long as I can.... They FedExed me the contract and I put it back in the mail this morning!!!!! My father's recovery was not for naught. "Brain-dead, No Chance of Recovery" will be on the stands, hopefully, by October 1, 2008. I'm in the final phases of editing now and if I hurry, I'll make the deadline. Right now, I'm off to Myrtle Beach to celebrate..... As the Catalina's would say, "Summertime's Calling Me"... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oKVjzlv8VKM I could not have done this without your help.... Please believe that!!! I promise I will mention my friends from www.writing.com I love you guys the most!!!!! I'm enjoying this high!!!!!! Luv ya, mean it PS.... I'm still gonna be back here, full force, by July 1st ........  PSS Congrats Debi Fleck,,,, Margaritas on me.... Nada.... I love ya, man!!!!!!!! |
DID YA MISS ME???? I missed you guys! You've been my support team and my cheering section for so long that I'm lost without you!  Life is grand AND busy. I have too much to tell you in just one blog so I'll drag it out; keep you in suspense. We're gearing up for the 2008 tax season, we've moved our office to a temporary location. (I have pictures) We're getting a brand new, 21st century Town Hall AND...........It's been hotter than Haides in my world. I think the temp was close to 100 yesterday. My southern heritage is showing as I try to perspire instead of sweat like a fat hog. Ok, that's all you get. I promise to be back in full swing by the first of the month with all the juicy details of my little hiatus. Ta ta Luv ya, mean it |
| ** Images For Use By Upgraded+ Only ** http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFKAzFs2fiY I have decided that I need to take a little break from the computer. Yes, I'm still having issues with letting go. How friggin' long does it take to get over love??? I have been hiding truths from you guys for a long time and now it's time to let it out. I cannot continue life as it is now. It's not fair to others. There are people who deserve my love and attention and until I totally let go of the past, I can't give them what they deserve.....SO, There are a few people that I will be putting on block/ignore so that I don't continue this "self-inflicted" torture. I can't read the writing everyday searching for glimpses of thoughts of me or see the pictures everyday and read the blogs everyday and get over it. Please know that I'm sorry if I disappoint you guys. I just know that I need to be offline for a while until I can stop torturing myself. Out of sight, out of mind. I'm fine and happy and going on with life with a chance at something good in my life. However, the past haunts me each and every day. I do know how to love unconditionally but feel I deserve more than unfaithfulness That is not loving someone unconditionally, that's settling and feeling so unsure of yourself that you have to take what you can get. I deserve better! I have my own faults and bad habits. People who only hear one side of the story shouldn't judge others when they live in a glass house. All that being said, I'm on hiatus...... I can be reached at sbell@ec.rr.com for those of you who don't have my email.... I won't be gone long but know that I'm thinking of you..... The words that come to mind this morning are the song above..... One thing 'bout this heart of mine all my hurts got a mending time it dont leave no scars behind I'll get over you I'll find me a guy one day whos not scared to give his heart away when i do It's safe to say that I'll get over you Ill get over you Ill get through it when I do Ill be good as new when I get over you from now on think Ill lay low Ill talk fast but Ill move slow you taught me all I need to know 'bout gettin over you sometimes I think I love you still wonder if I always will but I know its just untill I get over you sometimes think I love you still wonder if I always will love for you's so hard to kill but I'll get over you Luv ya, mean it |
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A wonderful tribute to a wonderful man. You were indeed blessed to have him as your father.