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Rated: 13+ · Book · Experience · #1827046
The place to be for positive reinforcements!
Hello My Sunny Pals, Welcome back to Shellyville....

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January 30, 2014 at 8:15am
January 30, 2014 at 8:15am
#805139
Hello my sunny pals,

If I had known what this time in my life would look like, I might have prepared myself more. Still, I did the best I could with what I have. Knowing that is what is giving me the faith to move on and be proud.

Now, if I could keep that positive vibe alive while we fight for Jackson's rights. I know this is going to be a challenge!

I get their position and I know they are playing hardball with us. I don't think they realize how hard we are going to fight in return. We are not going to let them have the upper hand. Every day that Jackson is out of school is a day he loses. He is already behind the 8ball do you think I am comfortable with that? NO!

Bring it on! I am ready to fight the good fight!

Love,
Michelle
January 28, 2014 at 9:21am
January 28, 2014 at 9:21am
#804901
Hello Sunshine,

So it looks like the verdict is in and Jackson will not be returning to seventh grade at Scranton. I can only hope that whatever happens next is a positive and learning experience for my son.

I am shocked and saddened by this happening but knew his luck was running out.

Dear God please continue to support me in all my challenges.

Love,
Michelle
January 26, 2014 at 9:37am
January 26, 2014 at 9:37am
#804641
Hello Sunshine,

Today is a perfect picture day if you were a snow globe.

It's frosting white snow flakes on the deck. It's ice on the windows. It's my sister's birthday and Matt's birthday too. Dominica said she couldn't remember when there was this much snow for her birthday. Maybe when she was a Kid. A lot can happen in 57 years!!

I have to get moving soon. It's time for more work. I wish I owned a snowmobile that would be the perfect ride for work today!!

Love,
Michelle
January 25, 2014 at 10:18am
January 25, 2014 at 10:18am
#804501
Hello white fluffy stuff,

The snow continues to fall in big fluffy flakes. The kind that coat every surface. It's stunning and beautiful and I would totally enjoy it if I was staying in and didn't have to drive to work.

Oh well, It's Winter! Snow is supposed to happen. I am glad it is. I love it. I love the stillness and white beauty. I love that the season's occur and that all is well with nature.

Life is one beautiful moment at a time.

Love,
Michelle
January 24, 2014 at 9:08am
January 24, 2014 at 9:08am
#804397
Hello Sunshine,

I guess I'm still not ready. I like all the parts but not the whole thing. I just can't bring myself into the relationship. It's not right. I don't feel it. So here is the question?...What do I do about it?

I can move on, date others...

I can give it time..

I can slowly figure out what I want.

I can have fun and build a friendship.

I need to slow down and back up. It's not right for me to give so much so soon. I am a giver and a taker. I am not on an even playing field. I know I have the potential to hurt someone and I don't want to do that.

One sweet day at a time I will figure this out.

Love,
Michelle
January 23, 2014 at 10:46am
January 23, 2014 at 10:46am
#804286
Hello my sunny pals,

Where in the world have you been? Out shopping? Maybe dancing around the universe? Or sitting peacefully in your own misery? It's been an epic battle with Jackson. It's not over yet. I still have another week of worry ahead.

What will the school district do? Are they sure that Jackson is a threat to society or only himself? I would have to say himself. But I am his mom, I get paid to say that.

If I was the school I would be concerned. I would question every authority and that is what they are doing. I can only pray this has a positive outcome for Jackson.

Being a mom is the greatest job I have ever had. I work endlessly for positive results. I am doing the best I can but it is taking it's toll. I have lost my self-confidence. I lost my cool. I have cried endless tears. I have pushed away wonderful friends. I have shut down.

I will return to living and writing. I will return to earning money and making good decisions. I won't stay in this ugly place forever. I never can. I am far too positive and wonderful for that.

Love,
Michelle
January 14, 2014 at 9:57am
January 14, 2014 at 9:57am
#803256
Hello Sunshine,

Yes I have a mental disorder. Yes, I have unexplained emotions but the one I understand the most is my need for laughter. It was the greatest crutch I learned as a child.

In my need to escape pain I laughed. In my need to put away tears and hurt I laughed.

So as an adult I still hide behind laughter. I still use it as a coping skill. I still use it as if the world depended on my laughter everyday. If I did not laugh I would be miserable. I don't want to be sad. I don't want to be pissed and angry. It is no fun to live that way. I need a better outlet for my emotions and love.

Love is here and I will use it to be a better person.

In my laugh the sound of tears splash in the background but I am used to the noise.

Love,
Michelle
January 12, 2014 at 10:43am
January 12, 2014 at 10:43am
#802979
Hello Sunshine,

It's not easy being content when the walls are falling down around me. If I could protect his future this would all be worth it. If however another ten day suspension leads to being expelled from school...Well it's out of my hands.

95 percent of the time he is a perfect kid. Kind, funny and on-track. That 5 percent when his ugly problems rise is where all our problems collide.

It's more than I can comprehend and want to deal with at the moment. I will go to work and escape but I fear leaving behind the mess.

Another day..

Love,
Michelle
January 9, 2014 at 9:32am
January 9, 2014 at 9:32am
#802655
Hello Sunshine,

Okay so I am only nine days late for the new year! It could be worse. I could be dead. I have been so busy doing, and redoing my life. I have been snowed in and frozen. I have been drunk with new directions and friends to play with. I let go of some demons of my past and I am ready to move my life in a new direction.

I am content. I am excited about my future. I am happy my life is making sense. I am poor. Broke in every way and richer than I have ever been. I am having a blast.

I am excited about the possibilities and the what ifs and the things that are slowly developing in my heart and mind. I am open. I am refreshed. I am loving myself.

I let go and moved on. I remembered and treasured. I have compassion for my decisions and excitement about my next big decision. I can do this. I can be this woman I am suppose to be.

life is beautiful.

Love,
Michelle



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